Holy Fuck.
So about three weeks ago I was completely stressed out by Garth and CIP and decided to look for for another job. I probably applied for about a half a dozen jobs. One including on a WILD shot a Front Store Manager Position at the Shoppers Dug Mart here in Downtown Victoria.
Apparently my resume and cover letter were impressive (as it should have been... cause I am impressive.. lol) cause I got an email on Friday afternoon asking when I was available for an interview! AHHHHHHH.
So me. A shoppers drug mart front store manager! Friggin Nuts! I made it perfectly clear in my resume and cover letter that I am only 23 but am SO eager to learn and grow and become a good leader! AHHHHHH. I am too excited. Even to be considered for the position is friggin insane. Its a lot of work running a Shoppers Drug Mart but by shit, I am so excited. It would be full time hours, with overtime and benefits, but I wouldn't be able to work at Fairways anymore.. which is rather sad since I really like it.. but still.
HOLY SHIT!
I'll let you know how it goes!
xxoo
Saturday, October 20, 2007
Wednesday, October 17, 2007
Everyones married. or getting there. am i?
First off I'd like to say I know too many people who have either a) gotten married in the last year or b) just got engaged this year. And I'll admit I'm wearing my jealous worried face. And to be honest.. maybe this is just my ego bursting.. but I always thought I'd be married before them. exhibit a. Miranda and Steve. Whoa. Who even knew she liked boys? I sure as hell didn't. And steve? I always thought he'd end up in the army forever firing guns at anything that moved. Hell. That still might happen.
Exhibit b. Jenna and Bill. What the fuck. I really don't know where to go from there.
And here we are. Me. I have been thinking about the rest of my love life far too much the last few days. Could I spend the rest of my life with marcos? His worst quality? The only bad thing that I can think about him is? He snores. And that my friend can be fixed. Could I marry him? And have his babies? And wake up to him every day? And wash his undies? And listen to him fart? Well we're past the farting stage and sleeping over is a regular affair. Wash his undies? It doesn't seem so terrible. Have his babies? He would be the most amazing father. He is so patient, loving, affectionate, morally sound, he loves kids, I can just see him spending every second with his kids. The res of my life eh? At this particular moment I'd say yes if he asked me. I guess there is just two points that popped into my mind. a) if jason showed up in canada tomorrow and asked me to marry him what would I say? Is marcos just the next best thing? b) we've only been dating for a little over a month. bahaha. Enough of the rest of my life already!
China 2.0: I love working at Quadra Fairways. I've made some awesome friends. Monday's I work in the service desk with Betty and we do nothing but laugh. No joke. She's a 40 something chinese woman all tiny and bucked tooth but by shit she is the funniest woman in the world. She worked with Marcos at #2 ages ago so I was asking her to tell me some gossip about him and this is what she says in her ridiculous chinese accident "He likes dirty pussy!" but she didn't say it loud... just loud enough for me to hear and when I gasped and asker her to repeat herself she was like "He likes young girls". I laughed sooo hard the further til called the desk to tell me not to laugh so loud. lol.
On Tuesday nights I work with Olivia in the service desk. Also.. nothing but laughter. Shes 24 and works full time at Fairways and lives the next street over from the store. But I drive her the half a block home. Last night she was telling me about her Saturday night "So I might've hugged marcos.... for 20 minutes. And then I hit on one of our customers who just happens to be standing at til 5 right now. AND THEN i tried to steal an ice cream bar for 7/11". I laughed soo hard. Ridonkulous!
Thursdays i work with Denise. Shes lovely we don't laugh as much.. but by god I try. lol
CIP - THe company that stole my hair.
Why is it that when you loose your hair comes off your head instead of the unwanted areas that have hair on them? like the backs of my knees where is really hard to shave? Or the stray chin hairs i'm developing? In anycase over the last few weeks my hair has been falling out because of the stress of my job. I'm trying to not let it take over my life, but its subconcious right? Like Am I gonna have a job in 6 months? I dunno. I wish I didn't have to think about it.. but I can't help it. My brain just goes and goes and goes. The only thing keeping me sane and being able to talk to marcos. he is just so understanding and helpful. So.. I just keep going in and doing my job. Yeah know.. I should probably doing more. I know everyone of you are going to say "you can only do what you can do" but really I think I could do more. Make a better effort. I'll try. Next week. lol.
My bottom.
So farch is coming out November 18 - December 1 for when I have my surgery. I sure am glad he's coming. It'll be nice to spend some quality time with him. That and I think it will be so nice to have him meet marcos. I think they both want to meet each other. My surgery is on the Monday and marcos has mondays and tuesdays off so he'll come to the hospital with me and dad I think.. which will be nice. THis sure does sound all very important and official and like we're getting married.
Thats all I can say right now. I'm getting a cramp and I must clean and shower before mr. popular gets here.
xxoo
Exhibit b. Jenna and Bill. What the fuck. I really don't know where to go from there.
And here we are. Me. I have been thinking about the rest of my love life far too much the last few days. Could I spend the rest of my life with marcos? His worst quality? The only bad thing that I can think about him is? He snores. And that my friend can be fixed. Could I marry him? And have his babies? And wake up to him every day? And wash his undies? And listen to him fart? Well we're past the farting stage and sleeping over is a regular affair. Wash his undies? It doesn't seem so terrible. Have his babies? He would be the most amazing father. He is so patient, loving, affectionate, morally sound, he loves kids, I can just see him spending every second with his kids. The res of my life eh? At this particular moment I'd say yes if he asked me. I guess there is just two points that popped into my mind. a) if jason showed up in canada tomorrow and asked me to marry him what would I say? Is marcos just the next best thing? b) we've only been dating for a little over a month. bahaha. Enough of the rest of my life already!
China 2.0: I love working at Quadra Fairways. I've made some awesome friends. Monday's I work in the service desk with Betty and we do nothing but laugh. No joke. She's a 40 something chinese woman all tiny and bucked tooth but by shit she is the funniest woman in the world. She worked with Marcos at #2 ages ago so I was asking her to tell me some gossip about him and this is what she says in her ridiculous chinese accident "He likes dirty pussy!" but she didn't say it loud... just loud enough for me to hear and when I gasped and asker her to repeat herself she was like "He likes young girls". I laughed sooo hard the further til called the desk to tell me not to laugh so loud. lol.
On Tuesday nights I work with Olivia in the service desk. Also.. nothing but laughter. Shes 24 and works full time at Fairways and lives the next street over from the store. But I drive her the half a block home. Last night she was telling me about her Saturday night "So I might've hugged marcos.... for 20 minutes. And then I hit on one of our customers who just happens to be standing at til 5 right now. AND THEN i tried to steal an ice cream bar for 7/11". I laughed soo hard. Ridonkulous!
Thursdays i work with Denise. Shes lovely we don't laugh as much.. but by god I try. lol
CIP - THe company that stole my hair.
Why is it that when you loose your hair comes off your head instead of the unwanted areas that have hair on them? like the backs of my knees where is really hard to shave? Or the stray chin hairs i'm developing? In anycase over the last few weeks my hair has been falling out because of the stress of my job. I'm trying to not let it take over my life, but its subconcious right? Like Am I gonna have a job in 6 months? I dunno. I wish I didn't have to think about it.. but I can't help it. My brain just goes and goes and goes. The only thing keeping me sane and being able to talk to marcos. he is just so understanding and helpful. So.. I just keep going in and doing my job. Yeah know.. I should probably doing more. I know everyone of you are going to say "you can only do what you can do" but really I think I could do more. Make a better effort. I'll try. Next week. lol.
My bottom.
So farch is coming out November 18 - December 1 for when I have my surgery. I sure am glad he's coming. It'll be nice to spend some quality time with him. That and I think it will be so nice to have him meet marcos. I think they both want to meet each other. My surgery is on the Monday and marcos has mondays and tuesdays off so he'll come to the hospital with me and dad I think.. which will be nice. THis sure does sound all very important and official and like we're getting married.
Thats all I can say right now. I'm getting a cramp and I must clean and shower before mr. popular gets here.
xxoo
Monday, September 17, 2007
My schedule vs. Your Schedule
Well today is monday. Which is the scheme of things means I start at the New Fairways tonight. In general this is not a bad thing. What is a bad thing is that Marcos still thinks its ok to see me after work. Monday also means he starts work today again too. And works til 10pm as well BUT doesn't start until 1. But he still thinks that I will be concious after 10pm tonight EVEN though I started at 7am... and will have start again tomorrow at 7am. I can see this relationship becoming physically draining very fast.
I love spending time with him and I love seeing him and I love talking to him.. but I have done all the above every day since he got back.. and to be honest.. I was hoping this was just a phase. Like after he returned to work we would have date nights and see each other a couple times a week? It doesn't look like it. So he's coming over tonight after work.. and then probably Tuesday after work (cause he doesn't work wednesday mornings... and then probably wednesday after he's done cause he works til 10 and me only til 3:30... it is going to be exhausting. I do need my sleep you know.
Oh well. I suppose we will see how this works?
I love spending time with him and I love seeing him and I love talking to him.. but I have done all the above every day since he got back.. and to be honest.. I was hoping this was just a phase. Like after he returned to work we would have date nights and see each other a couple times a week? It doesn't look like it. So he's coming over tonight after work.. and then probably Tuesday after work (cause he doesn't work wednesday mornings... and then probably wednesday after he's done cause he works til 10 and me only til 3:30... it is going to be exhausting. I do need my sleep you know.
Oh well. I suppose we will see how this works?
Saturday, September 15, 2007
The best reaction to no.
I definately had a great night.
Everyone from work went out for a few drinks.. or 8 tequila sunrises.. and some laughs. Turns out most of the people that I work with are either gay or bi. Who knew? Not me. Very strange events thats for sure.
The best part was aftewards tho. Marcos showed up about 11pm at my house and climbed into bed with me and we talked and kissed and cuddled and I really had no reservations about saying anything to him. Like.. after he left on Thursday night i went to bed.. but woke up at like 2 unbelievable turned on. I didn't know what to do with myself. lol. I told him that and he said the same thing happened to him.. cept it happened before he left my apartment. lol. The most important part of the night however, was when I said "I have been thinking about having sex with you all day and I've come up with a decision. I've decided that we should just yet". And he said he agreed and that he's glad that I made the decision and could say it out loud. We then proceeded to snuggle all night. AND SLEEP! I slept! And he slept! The only other boys house I've ever slept at when staying over was jason. ha.
So anyways. He stayed over and we then snuggled all morning on the couch and now I am exhausted and need to do grocery shopping and laundry and am NOT going out tonight. I'm playing golf with mike tomorrow morning and then seeing marcos tomorrow night.
I am turned into that girl. That girl who sees her boyfriend every day. Who knew that was me?
Public Announcement: I'm embarrassed that I judged people in relationships and how they weren't their own people anymore because of their boyfriends. I may in fact be a hypocrite.. except I am still my own person.
Everyone from work went out for a few drinks.. or 8 tequila sunrises.. and some laughs. Turns out most of the people that I work with are either gay or bi. Who knew? Not me. Very strange events thats for sure.
The best part was aftewards tho. Marcos showed up about 11pm at my house and climbed into bed with me and we talked and kissed and cuddled and I really had no reservations about saying anything to him. Like.. after he left on Thursday night i went to bed.. but woke up at like 2 unbelievable turned on. I didn't know what to do with myself. lol. I told him that and he said the same thing happened to him.. cept it happened before he left my apartment. lol. The most important part of the night however, was when I said "I have been thinking about having sex with you all day and I've come up with a decision. I've decided that we should just yet". And he said he agreed and that he's glad that I made the decision and could say it out loud. We then proceeded to snuggle all night. AND SLEEP! I slept! And he slept! The only other boys house I've ever slept at when staying over was jason. ha.
So anyways. He stayed over and we then snuggled all morning on the couch and now I am exhausted and need to do grocery shopping and laundry and am NOT going out tonight. I'm playing golf with mike tomorrow morning and then seeing marcos tomorrow night.
I am turned into that girl. That girl who sees her boyfriend every day. Who knew that was me?
Public Announcement: I'm embarrassed that I judged people in relationships and how they weren't their own people anymore because of their boyfriends. I may in fact be a hypocrite.. except I am still my own person.
Wednesday, September 12, 2007
Scary Happy - When your so happy you're scared.
Oh lovelies.
Yesterday was Tuesday. The Tuesday. The marking of a new chapter. Of a new start. Of a new "day". What a funny thing. On a Tuesday.
In anycase. Yesterday was my last day as a Fairways Sidney Cashier. And Marcos came home. He called me literally 20 minutes after he got home. So I said I would call him when I got home cause he wanted to do something after I was done work (can you imagine.. me up past 10pm? on a work night?) So I did. He came over and it was just like we had been together for ever. He kissed me when I opened the door and he just wanted to have a hand on me at all times.. in the kitchen in the hallway on the couch. It was adorable. And he brought me stuff from the phillipines! Some candy and coconut things and rum and a naked man. Yes thats right. I naked man. lol. I shall take picture and post it. Its hilarious. He said he bought me a necklace and then lost it so thats what I got instead. lol. It was just fantastic.
On a bummer note.. he does work at my new fairways. Funny enough... Elenor didn't schedule me for the days he works. lol. Which is better because I definately don't want to be that girl. I made a huge point about it last night that I had no idea he worked there and that he was not the reason I was going there... oh well.. it still looks like that to everyone else I'm sure. crapola.
In any case.. he's on his way over right now.. and we're going to get some eats.. I really like him. Scary happy like him.. and I think he feels the same. Not think. Know. I hope this isn't too good to be true. Please slap me when i start making up reason why I shouldn't date him. THere aren't any.
xxoo
Yesterday was Tuesday. The Tuesday. The marking of a new chapter. Of a new start. Of a new "day". What a funny thing. On a Tuesday.
In anycase. Yesterday was my last day as a Fairways Sidney Cashier. And Marcos came home. He called me literally 20 minutes after he got home. So I said I would call him when I got home cause he wanted to do something after I was done work (can you imagine.. me up past 10pm? on a work night?) So I did. He came over and it was just like we had been together for ever. He kissed me when I opened the door and he just wanted to have a hand on me at all times.. in the kitchen in the hallway on the couch. It was adorable. And he brought me stuff from the phillipines! Some candy and coconut things and rum and a naked man. Yes thats right. I naked man. lol. I shall take picture and post it. Its hilarious. He said he bought me a necklace and then lost it so thats what I got instead. lol. It was just fantastic.
On a bummer note.. he does work at my new fairways. Funny enough... Elenor didn't schedule me for the days he works. lol. Which is better because I definately don't want to be that girl. I made a huge point about it last night that I had no idea he worked there and that he was not the reason I was going there... oh well.. it still looks like that to everyone else I'm sure. crapola.
In any case.. he's on his way over right now.. and we're going to get some eats.. I really like him. Scary happy like him.. and I think he feels the same. Not think. Know. I hope this isn't too good to be true. Please slap me when i start making up reason why I shouldn't date him. THere aren't any.
xxoo
Sunday, September 09, 2007
"Just chillllll Winstonnnn"
I woke up this morning and realized I'm pretty good. I mean.. I didn't wake up feeling dressed out... or antsy.... and worried... or impatient. I mean... I'm good. So today was a pretty chill day. Cleaning and sewing mostly. Later I'm going to do some laundry and some reading and some grocery shopping.. but all of that is also pretty chill.
A story.
Last night we went to Melissa's house for a BBQ for Guathio's son who just returned from Afghanastan. I'd never met him.. but I love guathio so I was there for the celebration (and the food cause i love her cooking). I met Marvin. Guathio's son. Here's the thing. He is clearly malasyan.... which is fine.... but he speaks english... but in an awkward non accent way. In anyways.. thats not the point. The point is.. I think he was flirting with me. And I may have flirted with him. And they I felt guilty.
Its just no fail when you've decided not to fuck things up (and by fuck things up i mean every time i decide i like some one some one "better" comes along and i then they aren't really better and then i try and get back with the original guy he isn't interested) there always comes guys that are just ready and willing. No fail. And me being me.. can't resist the attention... but I think i've been fairly good lately.. i mean.. i've consciously thought "no.. he'll last 10 minutes" or "no.. he's cute but" yeah.
anyways. i'm chill now. what will be will be. in my lovely apartment.
xxoo
A story.
Last night we went to Melissa's house for a BBQ for Guathio's son who just returned from Afghanastan. I'd never met him.. but I love guathio so I was there for the celebration (and the food cause i love her cooking). I met Marvin. Guathio's son. Here's the thing. He is clearly malasyan.... which is fine.... but he speaks english... but in an awkward non accent way. In anyways.. thats not the point. The point is.. I think he was flirting with me. And I may have flirted with him. And they I felt guilty.
Its just no fail when you've decided not to fuck things up (and by fuck things up i mean every time i decide i like some one some one "better" comes along and i then they aren't really better and then i try and get back with the original guy he isn't interested) there always comes guys that are just ready and willing. No fail. And me being me.. can't resist the attention... but I think i've been fairly good lately.. i mean.. i've consciously thought "no.. he'll last 10 minutes" or "no.. he's cute but" yeah.
anyways. i'm chill now. what will be will be. in my lovely apartment.
xxoo
Wednesday, September 05, 2007
Turns out I may just be the most unfounded paranoid person in the world.
After posting yesterday melissa and i spent the afternoon walking around downtown and eating and drinking and talking. It was really funny. She also decided that I may actaully be very paranoid about marcos. I was not convinced. Either way.. I was just trying to lower my expectations of him calling me when he got back so I wasn't so heartbroken.
Well for some reason this morning, as soon as I got up I went to the computer and checked my facebook messeges. One from Marcos. I'm not going to go into details or anything but I'm pretty sure its the greatest note I've ever received. He is definately a keeper. And there is no doubt in my mind that he will be calling me when he gets back.
I haven't smiled his hard for this long in a very long time.
xxoo
Well for some reason this morning, as soon as I got up I went to the computer and checked my facebook messeges. One from Marcos. I'm not going to go into details or anything but I'm pretty sure its the greatest note I've ever received. He is definately a keeper. And there is no doubt in my mind that he will be calling me when he gets back.
I haven't smiled his hard for this long in a very long time.
xxoo
Tuesday, September 04, 2007
How to jab someone in the leg with a spear without actually doing it.
Oh hi.
There are two different ways to jab someone in the leg with a spear without actually doing it. And I have experience both.. in the same day.
1. Early yesterday morning as I was the doing the first of many Facebook adventures I discovered that my sister, the lovely person she is, decided to add marcos to her facebook. This apon first glance does not seem like such a terrible thing EXCEPT that I told her specifically that I didn't want to jynx this and that I wanted it to work out. But now.. now I just look crazy because my sister has added him to facebook EVEN THOUGH I'm pretty sure he doesn't even know I have a sister. Yeah. Thats how I was stabbed in the leg with a spear without her even knowing it.
2. Last night I went for dinner at the crazies with the other aunt and uncle and apparently the crazies best friends Dale & Gary AND the G-Ma Crazie. I could only stand three of the 8 people in the room and I was one of them. I have never disliked anyone with such ferocity as I hate Dale. This woman is the be all to end all. Just FULL to the brime of self importance. So.. as per my style.. I try and chop a bit at the chip on her shoulder every time I see her. Yesterday I got her square the leg with my spear. She was explaining how I missed an amazing Chinese food meal the other day when I said that after working at Fairways I couldn't possibly eat Chinese food because the place stinks of it. She then stated in a loud matter of fact voice that she's shopped there for many years and never smelt chinese food in there. I then starred her directly in the eye and said "Oh. Have you been in the Staff Room or the Back Room?". She shut right up. Then she tried to redem herself by saying that she always asks Guathio about how to cook her chinese vegetables like they were close friends. So I said "Oh yeah.. Guathio is a magnificent chef.. every time I go over there she makes amazing meals". She didn't speak of fairways or guathio after that. That is how you stab someonein the leg without her knowing you meant to.
Other then that.. only 7 more days til Marcos comes back.. and right at this very moment I'm feeling dreadful about it. This could just be me being paranoid (as per usual) but he had the time to add lindsay as a friend on facebook.. but didn't write me a messege?
Perhaps I just wanted it to work too badly.
Serves me right for getting my hopes up. Guess we'll find out when he calls me.. or doesn't when he gets back.
xxoo
There are two different ways to jab someone in the leg with a spear without actually doing it. And I have experience both.. in the same day.
1. Early yesterday morning as I was the doing the first of many Facebook adventures I discovered that my sister, the lovely person she is, decided to add marcos to her facebook. This apon first glance does not seem like such a terrible thing EXCEPT that I told her specifically that I didn't want to jynx this and that I wanted it to work out. But now.. now I just look crazy because my sister has added him to facebook EVEN THOUGH I'm pretty sure he doesn't even know I have a sister. Yeah. Thats how I was stabbed in the leg with a spear without her even knowing it.
2. Last night I went for dinner at the crazies with the other aunt and uncle and apparently the crazies best friends Dale & Gary AND the G-Ma Crazie. I could only stand three of the 8 people in the room and I was one of them. I have never disliked anyone with such ferocity as I hate Dale. This woman is the be all to end all. Just FULL to the brime of self importance. So.. as per my style.. I try and chop a bit at the chip on her shoulder every time I see her. Yesterday I got her square the leg with my spear. She was explaining how I missed an amazing Chinese food meal the other day when I said that after working at Fairways I couldn't possibly eat Chinese food because the place stinks of it. She then stated in a loud matter of fact voice that she's shopped there for many years and never smelt chinese food in there. I then starred her directly in the eye and said "Oh. Have you been in the Staff Room or the Back Room?". She shut right up. Then she tried to redem herself by saying that she always asks Guathio about how to cook her chinese vegetables like they were close friends. So I said "Oh yeah.. Guathio is a magnificent chef.. every time I go over there she makes amazing meals". She didn't speak of fairways or guathio after that. That is how you stab someonein the leg without her knowing you meant to.
Other then that.. only 7 more days til Marcos comes back.. and right at this very moment I'm feeling dreadful about it. This could just be me being paranoid (as per usual) but he had the time to add lindsay as a friend on facebook.. but didn't write me a messege?
Perhaps I just wanted it to work too badly.
Serves me right for getting my hopes up. Guess we'll find out when he calls me.. or doesn't when he gets back.
xxoo
Monday, September 03, 2007
Milestones only I would notice.
Hi Loves.
I was just thinking last night about somethings that I've accomplised over the last 11 months.. that maybe other people would find quite simple but myself in the past have found difficult.
a) Dating a boy without having had sexual contact with him before hand AND then being the one to break up with him because you weren't that interested in him.
(since when have i ever met a boy i didn't make out with first before trying to date him? and on that note.. I am never the one to break up with anyone.)
b) Learning to live with myself without depression.. backwards thinking... or yearning for things in the past.
(in the past i've always been the one to get depressed when "alone" as i often look back on past relationship and think "for why did I fuck that up?)
c) Can go to the grocery store and actually run into people I know!
(if you know this much about me.. i rather hate talking to people in the grocery store that i sorta kinda know.. but I'm making an effort!)
d) Getting over people who treat me badly.
(for example.. i dumped tia like a back of rocks. i dumped karley like it was going out of fashion. i dumped JJ & Chris real fast. I've learned to get over stacey's impossibley flakey nature. I've just gotten over them)
e) Im starting to learn how to look at situations from different angles. I used to be the first one to get angry but now I try and see all angles of situations (then get angry. lol)
Thats about all for know.
Putting my curtains together today then heading to family supper in sindey to with the crazies and my new fav. aunt and uncle.
xxoo
I was just thinking last night about somethings that I've accomplised over the last 11 months.. that maybe other people would find quite simple but myself in the past have found difficult.
a) Dating a boy without having had sexual contact with him before hand AND then being the one to break up with him because you weren't that interested in him.
(since when have i ever met a boy i didn't make out with first before trying to date him? and on that note.. I am never the one to break up with anyone.)
b) Learning to live with myself without depression.. backwards thinking... or yearning for things in the past.
(in the past i've always been the one to get depressed when "alone" as i often look back on past relationship and think "for why did I fuck that up?)
c) Can go to the grocery store and actually run into people I know!
(if you know this much about me.. i rather hate talking to people in the grocery store that i sorta kinda know.. but I'm making an effort!)
d) Getting over people who treat me badly.
(for example.. i dumped tia like a back of rocks. i dumped karley like it was going out of fashion. i dumped JJ & Chris real fast. I've learned to get over stacey's impossibley flakey nature. I've just gotten over them)
e) Im starting to learn how to look at situations from different angles. I used to be the first one to get angry but now I try and see all angles of situations (then get angry. lol)
Thats about all for know.
Putting my curtains together today then heading to family supper in sindey to with the crazies and my new fav. aunt and uncle.
xxoo
Friday, August 31, 2007
The magic of dryers.
Ya ever hear those stories about people who live in apartment buildings and share laundry and theres someone that folds other peoples laundry for them mysteriously?
I am that person. But not for the reasons you may think.
In our building it takes like 3-4 hours to do 3 loads of laundry. Which blows if you live on the third floor. I don't want to come down to the basement to find out I have to wait for some knob to take their clothes of the finished dryer. So... being impatient.. I fold said persons laundry so I can use the machine. Purely selfish. Mind you.. if someone had folded my clothes out of the dryer instead of just chucking them into the nearest basket (as it's happened to me before) I might feel greatful. Not the person I did it for. Instead they opened the dryer looking for their towels and found mine and then shut the door but didn't turn the dryer back on. Make that 4.5 hours doing 3 loads of laundry.
ANYWAYs. While I was on one of my many trips in the elevator to and fro the laundry room and realized something.
This is the first time in 8 years that I didn't receive a birthday messege of any sorts from jason. 8 entire years.
I guess that really means its over.
Anyways... things are way more bestest today then yesterday... although I'm missing marcos. or I should say the idea of marcos since technically we haven't really started dating yet... it's really been quite casual meetings.... but still. it would have been nice if he had been here for my little melt down yesterday in the wee hours of the morning. Mind you.. maybe I'm just thinking that because it could have happened.. as before I would have just said it would have been nice to have "someone" or "anyone" instead of Marcos. hmm.
So.. I'm just very excited for him to come home now. T-minus 11 days.
xxoo
I am that person. But not for the reasons you may think.
In our building it takes like 3-4 hours to do 3 loads of laundry. Which blows if you live on the third floor. I don't want to come down to the basement to find out I have to wait for some knob to take their clothes of the finished dryer. So... being impatient.. I fold said persons laundry so I can use the machine. Purely selfish. Mind you.. if someone had folded my clothes out of the dryer instead of just chucking them into the nearest basket (as it's happened to me before) I might feel greatful. Not the person I did it for. Instead they opened the dryer looking for their towels and found mine and then shut the door but didn't turn the dryer back on. Make that 4.5 hours doing 3 loads of laundry.
ANYWAYs. While I was on one of my many trips in the elevator to and fro the laundry room and realized something.
This is the first time in 8 years that I didn't receive a birthday messege of any sorts from jason. 8 entire years.
I guess that really means its over.
Anyways... things are way more bestest today then yesterday... although I'm missing marcos. or I should say the idea of marcos since technically we haven't really started dating yet... it's really been quite casual meetings.... but still. it would have been nice if he had been here for my little melt down yesterday in the wee hours of the morning. Mind you.. maybe I'm just thinking that because it could have happened.. as before I would have just said it would have been nice to have "someone" or "anyone" instead of Marcos. hmm.
So.. I'm just very excited for him to come home now. T-minus 11 days.
xxoo
Wednesday, August 29, 2007
Black and White. The world without colour.
The road to happiness, as I've so recently found out, is always filled with pot holes. You can try and dodge them.. but inadvertantly you end up in another one.. maybe not as shallow as the first and therefore creating a sore bottom.
My road is steadily becoming less and less potholed as I am finding reasons to either fill these pot holes in or just hit them as they come (although admittadly sometimes I just get out of the car and walk very slowly to avoid everything.).
Lately the pot holes are work. Work shouldn't be all life consuming. It should be something you do so that you can make money to do the things you enjoy. There are very few people who go to work every morning thinking "man. there is nothing else in the world i'd rather be doing." I having a feeling I will never be one of those lucky few seeing has I always choose jobs that I really have no experience in but for some reason believe I can do anyways. Back to the pot hole.
The hole that i hit most often and the hardest is the "artist" hole. Its the hole where no matter what your day is like there is always the artist that calls to complain. There is always the artist that calls to tell you your work simply isn't sellable (although they are keeping it anyways.) There is always the artist who calls and insists on speaking to your boss (which in my case does precious little because my boss is virtually blind, deaf & dumb). But there is always that artist.
Today's artist has me considering dumping this job to work for a company that doesn't do artists. Very seriously. I won't get into details.. but lets just say I very very much so hate colour correcting. So much so that I don't want to do it anymore.. therefore making everything black and white from not on. Every photo will be in black and white that is in my apartment.. feel free to add colours in your imagination my friends! Maybe you'll even remember what colour of shirt you were actually wearing (although not much fun in that is there.)
So in short. I'm going to start the job hunt again. I think. Right after marcos gets back. I feel I want to talk this out over a pillow with someone (sadly none of you are available.. so i shall wait for him to come back.) I suppose the challenge will be to fill in the artist pothole without creating new ones like "rotten customers all day long" potholes and "not making enough money to do this shit" potholes. hm.
In other news... I get my couch today. My internet/cable/telephone man appeared yesterday (dressed as a very good looking and intelligent young man) so I have that.. and now I don't work until Friday. We went to hot yoga again Monday.. and I tell ya.. as sore as I felt the day after... I was glad I went.. perhaps I'll go tomorrow too.
anyways.. i must skiddadle as the couch guy just called and said he'd be at my place in 30 minutes... sadly thats not where I am.. so I must get there before him!
shall talk to you all soon!
(ps.. amy i sent mail hoping it would take a week to get to your new place and arrive perhaps onthe first/maybe the second. hopefully its not that speedy from victoria? lol
xxoo
My road is steadily becoming less and less potholed as I am finding reasons to either fill these pot holes in or just hit them as they come (although admittadly sometimes I just get out of the car and walk very slowly to avoid everything.).
Lately the pot holes are work. Work shouldn't be all life consuming. It should be something you do so that you can make money to do the things you enjoy. There are very few people who go to work every morning thinking "man. there is nothing else in the world i'd rather be doing." I having a feeling I will never be one of those lucky few seeing has I always choose jobs that I really have no experience in but for some reason believe I can do anyways. Back to the pot hole.
The hole that i hit most often and the hardest is the "artist" hole. Its the hole where no matter what your day is like there is always the artist that calls to complain. There is always the artist that calls to tell you your work simply isn't sellable (although they are keeping it anyways.) There is always the artist who calls and insists on speaking to your boss (which in my case does precious little because my boss is virtually blind, deaf & dumb). But there is always that artist.
Today's artist has me considering dumping this job to work for a company that doesn't do artists. Very seriously. I won't get into details.. but lets just say I very very much so hate colour correcting. So much so that I don't want to do it anymore.. therefore making everything black and white from not on. Every photo will be in black and white that is in my apartment.. feel free to add colours in your imagination my friends! Maybe you'll even remember what colour of shirt you were actually wearing (although not much fun in that is there.)
So in short. I'm going to start the job hunt again. I think. Right after marcos gets back. I feel I want to talk this out over a pillow with someone (sadly none of you are available.. so i shall wait for him to come back.) I suppose the challenge will be to fill in the artist pothole without creating new ones like "rotten customers all day long" potholes and "not making enough money to do this shit" potholes. hm.
In other news... I get my couch today. My internet/cable/telephone man appeared yesterday (dressed as a very good looking and intelligent young man) so I have that.. and now I don't work until Friday. We went to hot yoga again Monday.. and I tell ya.. as sore as I felt the day after... I was glad I went.. perhaps I'll go tomorrow too.
anyways.. i must skiddadle as the couch guy just called and said he'd be at my place in 30 minutes... sadly thats not where I am.. so I must get there before him!
shall talk to you all soon!
(ps.. amy i sent mail hoping it would take a week to get to your new place and arrive perhaps onthe first/maybe the second. hopefully its not that speedy from victoria? lol
xxoo
Tuesday, August 21, 2007
I wish I was in the the Philippines.
Oh good morning Everyone. And should I say I'm sorry again as well. I know.. I know. I really should keep up with this.. after all it is a good source of therapy. But as of right now.. I believe I am on the path to happiness, if not a little excitement. Let me elaborate.
My holidays;
It has been discovered that when you go away for long stretches of time (9-10 months) and then return to your old life, you may have in fact glorified your old life while you were away. Or maybe that's just how I felt.
Returning to Toronto was everything I expected it to be. People change of course, but I think we are all changing for the better, or at least trying too.
Returning to Bracebridge, nothing really changed. It was friggin hot the whole time (which is something that doesn't happen here), my sister was still as self obsessed as ever (mostly involving her relationship with her boyfriend) and everyone in town still can't tell me and lindsay apart. Meh. I never really talked to anyone about town anyways.
My birthday was the usual drama filled occassion I assumed it would be. But it was a good time in general. I'm glad I was home for it.
Wasaga Beach was a fiasco all on it's own. Steveo first had the balls to ask how long I was staying and then proceed to introduce himself to my sister as the guy that I am in love with and will end up marrying. What a joke. Apparently he's moved back to Ontario now, and for some reason assumed I would too. I hope he didn't think I'd move for him. lol.
I have been back for a few weeks now - and it's good to back into the swing of things. Although it seems I am starting a new chapter with a little change. I made the decision to transfer China's. It was just too far to drive to sindey 3-5 times a week, and they couldn't accommodate my work schedule anymore (I don't know who thought I would be able to work 70 hour work weeks without complaining.) I'm supposed to talk to the Sidney store manager today and let him know.. and then find out about talking to the Quadra store manager (the store thats like 3 blocks from my house).
Dragon boating is over, which is sad but I'll be able to have my voice back. I sound like one of those 50's night club singers. Gay thinks it's sexy.. I'm not so sure. There are a few things I will elaborate on about Dragon boating tho;
= I met a guy. He meets all of the criteria. His name is Marcos. He treats me and everyone around him like gold. Into the story?
I met marcos probably 3 months ago.. May 10th to be exact on Melissa's birthday dinner. I thought he was cute and pretty nice.. to be honest I thought he may have been hitting on me.. but I didn't really say anything because it looked like he was hitting on Melissa too... anyways. I decided to join dragon boating. He, as it turns out, is the captain of the team. He is a assistant store manager I think at one of the Fairways in town? Not either of my stores tho. I've steadily flirted with him the last three months.. but he is such a nice guy that he is friendly with everyone so I was never really sure if he was flirting with me. I told melissa a couple of weeks ago that I may have a crush on him.. but she said it's hard to tell if he's flirting back because he's so friendly.
Last weekend was our first race weekend. Marcos and I spent the weekend just talking and watching the races... I dunno.. it seemed really.. cozy? Every once and awhile he'd put an arm around me... and give up his chair so I could sit down.. just little things.. but Melissa said he could be jsut being friendly. He was like that all week.. he even commented my hair one night at practise. It was so random but cute.
THis weekend was the big Vancouver Island Championships. Saturday we spent all day together.. we sat together.. he was constantly touching me.. whether is was just an arm around me.. or just standing really close together. I asked Melissa again as we were walking back to my place to get ready for dinner and the bar and she said "I dunno.. he could just be friendly". At this point I was pretty sure he was interested.
When we arrived at the place for dinner, he showed up shortly after and promptly sat beside me. We weren't in a booth.. but on stools and some how or another our stools turned into a bench and we were sitting so close together that out thighs were touching. It was an great dinner and we were having fun. Melissa and I then went to the bathroom and I asked her again and she still said I dunno. Finally Deb asked me to go out for a smoke with her and she was like "so.. you and marcos eh?" I was just like "I dunno.. melissa says he could be just friendly" and she was like "are you nuts? he is totally into to you.". So when we went back out I sat down and he put his arm around me.. just to test the waters I rested my hand on his leg... and he moved closer to me.
We had a few more drinks and then decided to go down to the club that had opened up in the basement. marcos knew the owners so got us in VIP without paying for cover or anything. He was mint. We dance and laughed and then all of sudden he was wrapped around me and kissed me. I just shivered thinking about it. It was nice. It wasn't a desperate drunken kiss.. it was a nice soft kiss. From then I on.. it was just us and dancing when I realized that we were "that" couple. That couldn't keep our hands off each other and makes everyone else around them awkward. So i just said to him that I didn't want to be that couple and I wanted everyone to have a good time and not feel awkward because of us and he totally got it. Melissa was still peeved about Tristan (the guy she liked) disappearing so she wanted to go home. So.. I went and said good bye to him as he's such a socialite and knew everyone there. It was lovely.. just kissing and saying good bye and kissing. Sadly he was going to the Philippines Sunday morning for a month. Booo.
Anyways. That is my story. And in case anyone is wondering.. it wasn't just a drunken incident because I got a messege this morning from the Philippines wishing he was back here with me. (giant smile on my face).
Anyhoo.. that is my excitement for the moment. I do have more to tell.. but I have to do some work while I'm hear right? boooo
xxoo
My holidays;
It has been discovered that when you go away for long stretches of time (9-10 months) and then return to your old life, you may have in fact glorified your old life while you were away. Or maybe that's just how I felt.
Returning to Toronto was everything I expected it to be. People change of course, but I think we are all changing for the better, or at least trying too.
Returning to Bracebridge, nothing really changed. It was friggin hot the whole time (which is something that doesn't happen here), my sister was still as self obsessed as ever (mostly involving her relationship with her boyfriend) and everyone in town still can't tell me and lindsay apart. Meh. I never really talked to anyone about town anyways.
My birthday was the usual drama filled occassion I assumed it would be. But it was a good time in general. I'm glad I was home for it.
Wasaga Beach was a fiasco all on it's own. Steveo first had the balls to ask how long I was staying and then proceed to introduce himself to my sister as the guy that I am in love with and will end up marrying. What a joke. Apparently he's moved back to Ontario now, and for some reason assumed I would too. I hope he didn't think I'd move for him. lol.
I have been back for a few weeks now - and it's good to back into the swing of things. Although it seems I am starting a new chapter with a little change. I made the decision to transfer China's. It was just too far to drive to sindey 3-5 times a week, and they couldn't accommodate my work schedule anymore (I don't know who thought I would be able to work 70 hour work weeks without complaining.) I'm supposed to talk to the Sidney store manager today and let him know.. and then find out about talking to the Quadra store manager (the store thats like 3 blocks from my house).
Dragon boating is over, which is sad but I'll be able to have my voice back. I sound like one of those 50's night club singers. Gay thinks it's sexy.. I'm not so sure. There are a few things I will elaborate on about Dragon boating tho;
= I met a guy. He meets all of the criteria. His name is Marcos. He treats me and everyone around him like gold. Into the story?
I met marcos probably 3 months ago.. May 10th to be exact on Melissa's birthday dinner. I thought he was cute and pretty nice.. to be honest I thought he may have been hitting on me.. but I didn't really say anything because it looked like he was hitting on Melissa too... anyways. I decided to join dragon boating. He, as it turns out, is the captain of the team. He is a assistant store manager I think at one of the Fairways in town? Not either of my stores tho. I've steadily flirted with him the last three months.. but he is such a nice guy that he is friendly with everyone so I was never really sure if he was flirting with me. I told melissa a couple of weeks ago that I may have a crush on him.. but she said it's hard to tell if he's flirting back because he's so friendly.
Last weekend was our first race weekend. Marcos and I spent the weekend just talking and watching the races... I dunno.. it seemed really.. cozy? Every once and awhile he'd put an arm around me... and give up his chair so I could sit down.. just little things.. but Melissa said he could be jsut being friendly. He was like that all week.. he even commented my hair one night at practise. It was so random but cute.
THis weekend was the big Vancouver Island Championships. Saturday we spent all day together.. we sat together.. he was constantly touching me.. whether is was just an arm around me.. or just standing really close together. I asked Melissa again as we were walking back to my place to get ready for dinner and the bar and she said "I dunno.. he could just be friendly". At this point I was pretty sure he was interested.
When we arrived at the place for dinner, he showed up shortly after and promptly sat beside me. We weren't in a booth.. but on stools and some how or another our stools turned into a bench and we were sitting so close together that out thighs were touching. It was an great dinner and we were having fun. Melissa and I then went to the bathroom and I asked her again and she still said I dunno. Finally Deb asked me to go out for a smoke with her and she was like "so.. you and marcos eh?" I was just like "I dunno.. melissa says he could be just friendly" and she was like "are you nuts? he is totally into to you.". So when we went back out I sat down and he put his arm around me.. just to test the waters I rested my hand on his leg... and he moved closer to me.
We had a few more drinks and then decided to go down to the club that had opened up in the basement. marcos knew the owners so got us in VIP without paying for cover or anything. He was mint. We dance and laughed and then all of sudden he was wrapped around me and kissed me. I just shivered thinking about it. It was nice. It wasn't a desperate drunken kiss.. it was a nice soft kiss. From then I on.. it was just us and dancing when I realized that we were "that" couple. That couldn't keep our hands off each other and makes everyone else around them awkward. So i just said to him that I didn't want to be that couple and I wanted everyone to have a good time and not feel awkward because of us and he totally got it. Melissa was still peeved about Tristan (the guy she liked) disappearing so she wanted to go home. So.. I went and said good bye to him as he's such a socialite and knew everyone there. It was lovely.. just kissing and saying good bye and kissing. Sadly he was going to the Philippines Sunday morning for a month. Booo.
Anyways. That is my story. And in case anyone is wondering.. it wasn't just a drunken incident because I got a messege this morning from the Philippines wishing he was back here with me. (giant smile on my face).
Anyhoo.. that is my excitement for the moment. I do have more to tell.. but I have to do some work while I'm hear right? boooo
xxoo
Wednesday, July 18, 2007
MyRon vs MoRon
I tell ya.. this morning did not go well at all! If it could go wrong it did.
1. MyRon (or MoRon) tried to yell at me about something that he really had no clue about. Which mad him even matter when I called him on it... which in effect got me into more trouble. Ass.
2. A job that was completed early last week got lost in Shipping so I had to ask Deb to print it again.. and then after I'd given the new one to shipping she called to tell me she hadn't completely trimmed it so I had to get it back again and trim it. ass.
3. The Indigo broke. Again.
4. I tripped on the telephone wire and snapped it in two while Mike (the indigo operator) was on the phone with tech support trying to fix it.
5. Quality Control fucked up a very important order so now I have to reprint it again. all 38 prints.
Really thats it. But it really seemed terrible at the time because it was all happening at once. yeah.
So i went shopping last night before dragon boating and bought a wonderfully darling white summer dress to wear to lindsay's birthday.. it soo pretty. I heart it. It makes me look even more tanned! (I know.. I'm obsessed with being tanned now. But for the record.. everyone out here is tanned.... so I'm not the only crazy one.)
I then proceeded to dragon boating and yelled my face off... and now i have no voice. which is fine.. cause I don't feel like yelling or being upset today.
The end. Working in china tonight.. boooo. so working here (CIP) then tanning then eating then china. and then laundry. yarg. I just need to do laundry! sob
10 more days!
1. MyRon (or MoRon) tried to yell at me about something that he really had no clue about. Which mad him even matter when I called him on it... which in effect got me into more trouble. Ass.
2. A job that was completed early last week got lost in Shipping so I had to ask Deb to print it again.. and then after I'd given the new one to shipping she called to tell me she hadn't completely trimmed it so I had to get it back again and trim it. ass.
3. The Indigo broke. Again.
4. I tripped on the telephone wire and snapped it in two while Mike (the indigo operator) was on the phone with tech support trying to fix it.
5. Quality Control fucked up a very important order so now I have to reprint it again. all 38 prints.
Really thats it. But it really seemed terrible at the time because it was all happening at once. yeah.
So i went shopping last night before dragon boating and bought a wonderfully darling white summer dress to wear to lindsay's birthday.. it soo pretty. I heart it. It makes me look even more tanned! (I know.. I'm obsessed with being tanned now. But for the record.. everyone out here is tanned.... so I'm not the only crazy one.)
I then proceeded to dragon boating and yelled my face off... and now i have no voice. which is fine.. cause I don't feel like yelling or being upset today.
The end. Working in china tonight.. boooo. so working here (CIP) then tanning then eating then china. and then laundry. yarg. I just need to do laundry! sob
10 more days!
Monday, July 16, 2007
Only I would end up in Naniamo in the middle of the night.
My lord is been a busy week! Where oh where to begin....
Thursday!
I am dragon boat drummer! HAHAHAHAH
No really.
I went with Melissa and Guathio (sounds like squato) to dragon boating and as it turns out I get to sit at the front of the boat and yell things and beat a drum. Funkin hilarious if I don't say so myself. Sadly there are no hot guys on the team. BUT there are races at the end of August where I've been guaranteed good looking, tanned, hot, sweaty men. bah.
Friday!
Melissa and I decide we are going to hot yoga. I don't know if any of you have every been to hot yoga.. but try doing an hour and half yoga class in a room with 30 other people in it in about +40 degree sunshine. You got it. It stinks. And your sweating. And you starring at the guys next you's sweaty balls. (no joke. I saw droplets form and fall off). We walked out of there with clothing feeling like i've just stepped out the ocean (the ocean instead of a pool because of all of the salty film left after sweating.) It was hard! I was a hurting unit afterwards EXCEPT just before we went to go to Yoga, Lindsay, my friend from Vancouver called and convinced me to come to Burnaby for the night / next day.
So i race home after yoga have the coldest shower available to mankind before you catch phenomia and then race to the liquor store and onto the 9pm ferry. I finally arrive in Vancouver to realize I dont REALLY know where I'm going. I then proceed to get lost in Vancouver until roughly midnight? lol. When I finally arrive at Lindsays she's got half the Irish FIFA soccer team and their friends in her backyard absolutely sloshed. lol. SO funny. and most of them just happened to be good looking and funny. I may in fact have suggested a large jammy party in my futton. lol. ANNYways... it was a very funny night which concluded in me pulling my pants down in the street... puking for an hour... seeing a fat mans weenie as i pushed him out of my bed... and then passing out. lol. I wish there were pictures. lol.
Saturday morning Lindsay and I spend the morning suntanning in her backyard as her boyfriend searched for her missing cat (who codincidentally was really just hiding under the sofa all morning) and then we went on an adventure to the beach in North Van. It was an ocean beach. The kind where you see starfish in the water when your trying to brave the cold. Needless to say I'm a warm water swimmer so I didn't get in on purpose. Lindsay's friends had brought a skidoo of some sorts so I get on with Lindsay driving. We were doing soo well.. until we fell off going 90 miles an hour. She landed right on top of me and we tumbled and drown for like 10 more yards. We had to swim like 25 yards in friggin ice cold water to get back to the damn ski doo. It was fucking hilarious tho. So the beach had bands playing so we dried off and baked for a while longer listening to the band when I remembered I was supposed to go to my work bbq. OOOOPS. so mike (lindsays hot hot friend) gives me Directions to Horseshoe Bay Terminal which "apparently" goes to Swartz Bay outside of Victoria. Not a fucking chance. I end up on a damn ferry going to Naniamo.. which happens to be 2 hours from Victoria. So I didn't go to the BBQ. lol. I got home at like 11:30. SO funny. Shit like that only happens to me.
Sunday I tried to go the gym when I realized that when I got onto the eliptical.. that my legs... thighs... ass.. lowerback.. and shoulders didn't work very well. In fact not at all. I walked like I'd been anal raped by a telephone pole all day. lol. So i worked 10:30 to 7 in China.. then went to Melissa's for asain dinner in which her landlords made for us.. consumed a couple bottles of wine.. then drove home and went to bed. It was a friggin action packed weekend to say the least. whewf.
Today I'm working 7-3:30 then tanning then eating then 5-9 then doing laundry.
Tomorrow I'm working 7-3:30 then dragon boating at 7 - 8:30
Wednesday; 7-3:30 then tanning then eating then 5-9
Thursday 7-3:30 work then dragon boating 7 - 8:30
Friday work 7 - 3:30 thenn OFF
Saturday and Sunday I'm in Vancouver all weekend for Lindsay's Birthday... which as funny as it is... the irish boys will be at too....
then the same routine next week AND THEN LEAVING ON NEXT FRIDAY FOR ONTARIO!!!!!
I'm sooo pumped to see you girls! Its eating me alive!
Hurray. So the goal is to get everyone something in Vancouver next weekend and some furniture for the place and thats it!
Love you all muchly... until next time!!
Thursday!
I am dragon boat drummer! HAHAHAHAH
No really.
I went with Melissa and Guathio (sounds like squato) to dragon boating and as it turns out I get to sit at the front of the boat and yell things and beat a drum. Funkin hilarious if I don't say so myself. Sadly there are no hot guys on the team. BUT there are races at the end of August where I've been guaranteed good looking, tanned, hot, sweaty men. bah.
Friday!
Melissa and I decide we are going to hot yoga. I don't know if any of you have every been to hot yoga.. but try doing an hour and half yoga class in a room with 30 other people in it in about +40 degree sunshine. You got it. It stinks. And your sweating. And you starring at the guys next you's sweaty balls. (no joke. I saw droplets form and fall off). We walked out of there with clothing feeling like i've just stepped out the ocean (the ocean instead of a pool because of all of the salty film left after sweating.) It was hard! I was a hurting unit afterwards EXCEPT just before we went to go to Yoga, Lindsay, my friend from Vancouver called and convinced me to come to Burnaby for the night / next day.
So i race home after yoga have the coldest shower available to mankind before you catch phenomia and then race to the liquor store and onto the 9pm ferry. I finally arrive in Vancouver to realize I dont REALLY know where I'm going. I then proceed to get lost in Vancouver until roughly midnight? lol. When I finally arrive at Lindsays she's got half the Irish FIFA soccer team and their friends in her backyard absolutely sloshed. lol. SO funny. and most of them just happened to be good looking and funny. I may in fact have suggested a large jammy party in my futton. lol. ANNYways... it was a very funny night which concluded in me pulling my pants down in the street... puking for an hour... seeing a fat mans weenie as i pushed him out of my bed... and then passing out. lol. I wish there were pictures. lol.
Saturday morning Lindsay and I spend the morning suntanning in her backyard as her boyfriend searched for her missing cat (who codincidentally was really just hiding under the sofa all morning) and then we went on an adventure to the beach in North Van. It was an ocean beach. The kind where you see starfish in the water when your trying to brave the cold. Needless to say I'm a warm water swimmer so I didn't get in on purpose. Lindsay's friends had brought a skidoo of some sorts so I get on with Lindsay driving. We were doing soo well.. until we fell off going 90 miles an hour. She landed right on top of me and we tumbled and drown for like 10 more yards. We had to swim like 25 yards in friggin ice cold water to get back to the damn ski doo. It was fucking hilarious tho. So the beach had bands playing so we dried off and baked for a while longer listening to the band when I remembered I was supposed to go to my work bbq. OOOOPS. so mike (lindsays hot hot friend) gives me Directions to Horseshoe Bay Terminal which "apparently" goes to Swartz Bay outside of Victoria. Not a fucking chance. I end up on a damn ferry going to Naniamo.. which happens to be 2 hours from Victoria. So I didn't go to the BBQ. lol. I got home at like 11:30. SO funny. Shit like that only happens to me.
Sunday I tried to go the gym when I realized that when I got onto the eliptical.. that my legs... thighs... ass.. lowerback.. and shoulders didn't work very well. In fact not at all. I walked like I'd been anal raped by a telephone pole all day. lol. So i worked 10:30 to 7 in China.. then went to Melissa's for asain dinner in which her landlords made for us.. consumed a couple bottles of wine.. then drove home and went to bed. It was a friggin action packed weekend to say the least. whewf.
Today I'm working 7-3:30 then tanning then eating then 5-9 then doing laundry.
Tomorrow I'm working 7-3:30 then dragon boating at 7 - 8:30
Wednesday; 7-3:30 then tanning then eating then 5-9
Thursday 7-3:30 work then dragon boating 7 - 8:30
Friday work 7 - 3:30 thenn OFF
Saturday and Sunday I'm in Vancouver all weekend for Lindsay's Birthday... which as funny as it is... the irish boys will be at too....
then the same routine next week AND THEN LEAVING ON NEXT FRIDAY FOR ONTARIO!!!!!
I'm sooo pumped to see you girls! Its eating me alive!
Hurray. So the goal is to get everyone something in Vancouver next weekend and some furniture for the place and thats it!
Love you all muchly... until next time!!
Sunday, July 08, 2007
Only my aunt calls to tell me I left a sock behind. Only mine.
Oh I'm terribly sorry my loves! It's been 15 days, or 360+ hours since I've last blogged.. but for purely good reasons.
Reason A.
I've decided to try and survive as long as possible without the internet/cable/home phone in my apartment. Not only for money reasons, but also because it forces me to read more, get out and see stuff, to be social and do more of those artsy fartsy things I never seem to have time for. lol. And also because thats an extra $80+ bucks a month that i can spend on decorating and crafty things.
Reason B.
I've been sooooo busy at work(s) that there isn't time for sneaking about on the internet. And believe you/me, I want to sneak about about write to about the last two weeks adventures!
Reason C.
With all this moving business.. I just haven't had time.
On with the stories you say? TAAAADA!
Love Life - Obviously the least important but the most interesting.
I don't like Matt. In fact, we couldn't be friends even because he has no personal convictions. But here I am.. doing dinner and movie with him tomorrow.. because he's one of those people that is so shy that when he grows the balls to ask you can't say no. Damn in Amy.. i know how it feels to be in your relationship. lol. cept not as bad. lol. The last time we hung out.. it was by accident. It was Canada Day weekend.. and it was my last night in the crazies house. Melissa and I ended up at Allen's house as he was having a shindig and matt happened to be there. To be completely honest.. they are the most imbred hicks I think i've come across... and I grew up in bracebridge and went to school in belleville! Their life is soley consumed by drugs and alcohol. Their house is a run down shack that allens boss lets them live in for free in exchange for manual labour. They have no dreams, aspirations, talents, skills or interesting features. Obviously I didn't fit in, and understandably matt tried to make me have a better time by "bashing" the people at the party. What does that say about you as a person if you continue to go to parties that your supposid best friend holds and then spend the night trying to impress a girl by pretending you don't like anyone there? yeah.
On the good front.. my building has a number of decent looking boys/men that live in it.. I just have to figure out their schedules around mine. lol.
My new apartment - Obviously the most exciting news - but an on going project
Yes. I love it. I will live here until they tear this building down. Ok.. maybe not that long.. but i really do love it. When i get my new furniture i will post a few pictures on here.. right now it just looks empty considering i only own a bed. yup. no other furntiture. Although with the amount of books that I own I could probably building some furniture out of the them. I did however buy I a bed - which came last week... and then on saturday I baugh a condo couch and lounge. Its just amazing. you'll all be jealous when you come see me. You did notice the "when" in that last sentance. The couch is a dark chocolate brown.. and the lounge is a creme with brown and tourqouis swirls.. so i painted one wall tourquois. it might be the funniest thing ever. That or the fact that I baught a fish and named him cornelious cobknobler. its because his eyeballs stick out of his head and are black and look like knobs. lol. He always makes me laugh. lol.
My job - Part 1. The 50 year old men syndrom
MyRon has now made the executive desicion that I am in charge of scheduling everything in the damn company. Scheduleing alone will take me most of the morning - and then doing all of the indigo jobs - and then doing all of my printing - there just enough time in my day - not money in my paycheck for this. I must find an easier way to do this. Mike - the one with the permanent pantywad up his ass - has since recruited Galadriel - the nasty lesbian - so neither of them EVER talk to me. Not ever. Not a good morning. Not a "I broke my press". Not "Your a raging bitch stop talking to me". Nothing. I don't mind it.. except that when there are problems they never tell me so I am always wondering why jobs aren't getting done. Frustrating as hell. Jerks. But hey.. if they want to act like 10 year girls so be it.. i am there to do a job and so are they. If they do their job everything will be fine.
My job - Part 2. China
I have begun a crusade. Ok 2 crusades. One is to rid the world of pennies. I never give them out any more. lol. The second is the rid my air space of know it all crusty chinese women. You heard me. I am so over the crusty old chinese women telling me what to do.. when I have clearly worked there for two months and know what I am doing. One of the women rose got in my face when i was busy one day about putting something back on the shelf and i turned to her in the middle of my order and said "rose. if you have so much time to be over here telling me to do it, why don't you do it." so hasn't talked to me since. holly: 1 chinese women: 0. Next was Juilette. She came over one evening and asked if I would come take over til 2 so she could go home. I calmly said "juilette. there is no one here. I will wait until you are out of the til before I go over. I have worked this shift more than 40 times in the last two months. I know how it works". She then said "don't get bitchy with me. i sick of this fucking shit." i laughed. Holly:2 Chinese Women: 0. Only 8 more to go.
Other random News:
Ontario in t-minus 20 days!
Amy & Stace.. are we still meeting up in Calgary? Yes? No? Either way.. I am still gonna go that weekend to see my friend Jenn. She just called and we talked for like and hour. She's a crazy funny girl to be sure.
Oh. And the crazies called my cell phone the other day to tell me I left a sock at their house. Only MY crazies would call to tell me that.
Plans for tonight? SEWING! And ready.
OH THE Y! I forgot to tell ya'll! (correct.. i used the term ya'll!) Its the most amazing place in the world. They have 3 huge gyms, two pools (both of which I can't seem to find).. and they do all sorts of classes.. like dance and yoga and fitnes and all sorts of fun amazing things! I love it. And there are hot boys there.. not just old people! AND it only cost 30 bucks a month! Hurray. OH and its only 2 block away from my apartment! I love walking there cause there is a graveyard/park that i have to walk through. its awesome.
Ok. I'm tired of typing now.. but we will all talk soon. OH. and can you please all email me the following;
Name
Address
Home Phone
Cell Phone
As it turns out.. my address book is lost and i can' write letters! It's so sad!
love you all muchly!!
xxoo
Reason A.
I've decided to try and survive as long as possible without the internet/cable/home phone in my apartment. Not only for money reasons, but also because it forces me to read more, get out and see stuff, to be social and do more of those artsy fartsy things I never seem to have time for. lol. And also because thats an extra $80+ bucks a month that i can spend on decorating and crafty things.
Reason B.
I've been sooooo busy at work(s) that there isn't time for sneaking about on the internet. And believe you/me, I want to sneak about about write to about the last two weeks adventures!
Reason C.
With all this moving business.. I just haven't had time.
On with the stories you say? TAAAADA!
Love Life - Obviously the least important but the most interesting.
I don't like Matt. In fact, we couldn't be friends even because he has no personal convictions. But here I am.. doing dinner and movie with him tomorrow.. because he's one of those people that is so shy that when he grows the balls to ask you can't say no. Damn in Amy.. i know how it feels to be in your relationship. lol. cept not as bad. lol. The last time we hung out.. it was by accident. It was Canada Day weekend.. and it was my last night in the crazies house. Melissa and I ended up at Allen's house as he was having a shindig and matt happened to be there. To be completely honest.. they are the most imbred hicks I think i've come across... and I grew up in bracebridge and went to school in belleville! Their life is soley consumed by drugs and alcohol. Their house is a run down shack that allens boss lets them live in for free in exchange for manual labour. They have no dreams, aspirations, talents, skills or interesting features. Obviously I didn't fit in, and understandably matt tried to make me have a better time by "bashing" the people at the party. What does that say about you as a person if you continue to go to parties that your supposid best friend holds and then spend the night trying to impress a girl by pretending you don't like anyone there? yeah.
On the good front.. my building has a number of decent looking boys/men that live in it.. I just have to figure out their schedules around mine. lol.
My new apartment - Obviously the most exciting news - but an on going project
Yes. I love it. I will live here until they tear this building down. Ok.. maybe not that long.. but i really do love it. When i get my new furniture i will post a few pictures on here.. right now it just looks empty considering i only own a bed. yup. no other furntiture. Although with the amount of books that I own I could probably building some furniture out of the them. I did however buy I a bed - which came last week... and then on saturday I baugh a condo couch and lounge. Its just amazing. you'll all be jealous when you come see me. You did notice the "when" in that last sentance. The couch is a dark chocolate brown.. and the lounge is a creme with brown and tourqouis swirls.. so i painted one wall tourquois. it might be the funniest thing ever. That or the fact that I baught a fish and named him cornelious cobknobler. its because his eyeballs stick out of his head and are black and look like knobs. lol. He always makes me laugh. lol.
My job - Part 1. The 50 year old men syndrom
MyRon has now made the executive desicion that I am in charge of scheduling everything in the damn company. Scheduleing alone will take me most of the morning - and then doing all of the indigo jobs - and then doing all of my printing - there just enough time in my day - not money in my paycheck for this. I must find an easier way to do this. Mike - the one with the permanent pantywad up his ass - has since recruited Galadriel - the nasty lesbian - so neither of them EVER talk to me. Not ever. Not a good morning. Not a "I broke my press". Not "Your a raging bitch stop talking to me". Nothing. I don't mind it.. except that when there are problems they never tell me so I am always wondering why jobs aren't getting done. Frustrating as hell. Jerks. But hey.. if they want to act like 10 year girls so be it.. i am there to do a job and so are they. If they do their job everything will be fine.
My job - Part 2. China
I have begun a crusade. Ok 2 crusades. One is to rid the world of pennies. I never give them out any more. lol. The second is the rid my air space of know it all crusty chinese women. You heard me. I am so over the crusty old chinese women telling me what to do.. when I have clearly worked there for two months and know what I am doing. One of the women rose got in my face when i was busy one day about putting something back on the shelf and i turned to her in the middle of my order and said "rose. if you have so much time to be over here telling me to do it, why don't you do it." so hasn't talked to me since. holly: 1 chinese women: 0. Next was Juilette. She came over one evening and asked if I would come take over til 2 so she could go home. I calmly said "juilette. there is no one here. I will wait until you are out of the til before I go over. I have worked this shift more than 40 times in the last two months. I know how it works". She then said "don't get bitchy with me. i sick of this fucking shit." i laughed. Holly:2 Chinese Women: 0. Only 8 more to go.
Other random News:
Ontario in t-minus 20 days!
Amy & Stace.. are we still meeting up in Calgary? Yes? No? Either way.. I am still gonna go that weekend to see my friend Jenn. She just called and we talked for like and hour. She's a crazy funny girl to be sure.
Oh. And the crazies called my cell phone the other day to tell me I left a sock at their house. Only MY crazies would call to tell me that.
Plans for tonight? SEWING! And ready.
OH THE Y! I forgot to tell ya'll! (correct.. i used the term ya'll!) Its the most amazing place in the world. They have 3 huge gyms, two pools (both of which I can't seem to find).. and they do all sorts of classes.. like dance and yoga and fitnes and all sorts of fun amazing things! I love it. And there are hot boys there.. not just old people! AND it only cost 30 bucks a month! Hurray. OH and its only 2 block away from my apartment! I love walking there cause there is a graveyard/park that i have to walk through. its awesome.
Ok. I'm tired of typing now.. but we will all talk soon. OH. and can you please all email me the following;
Name
Address
Home Phone
Cell Phone
As it turns out.. my address book is lost and i can' write letters! It's so sad!
love you all muchly!!
xxoo
Saturday, June 23, 2007
My war on the scale.
TUesday evening I went to the mall. I had to pick up my shoes so it only seemed fair to get some new jeans in my newly "lost weight" state. Instead it turned ugly. My theighs are still large. Boo. I nearly cried. But instead got my hair cut and felt moppy. So I went to Linen'n'Things; my new favourite store. Where I baught a scale. Tara, sales at work, says when you've had enough you've had enough and you normally succeed at doing what ever it is to solve the problem. So i'd had enough of this mystery that is weight loss. I was going to weigh my self regularly so that I would continue to loose weight. After Linen'n'THings I walked to the gym and back, had a shower.. but then still couldn't get on the scale. So I didn't snack and went to bed. In the morning, after my shower, I got on it. Do you know what it read?
180 pounds.
I was stunned. Never in my life have a felt like that. So I hada yogurt for breakfast, a salad for lunch and a veggie wrap for dinner. I then went to the gym for an hour. I weighed myself again.
176 pounds.
No idea whats going on here. So thursday I have dried fruit for breakfast, small potato salad for lunch, 6 chicken wings for dinner and go to the gym. I weighed myself that night.
174 pounds.
Friday I get up early to go to the gym cause I have to work all day, i have an apple muffin for breakfast, a small potato salad for lunch and a veggie wrap for dinner. I get up this morning and weigh myself.
173 pounds.
I then take a poop. and for kicks weigh myself.
172 pounds.
So according to my scale in 68 hours I have lost;
8 pounds.
Is that actually possible? I don't think so.. but physcologically it makes me feel good. lol. It drove me out of bed this morning to go the gym before my eyebrow waxing appointment! And it will probably drive me not to eat or drink like a pig today. It all seems very strange. However, I would like this on the record.. I am still not happy at 172 pounds. I will be content at 160... but be happy at 150... and at the rate I'm going... I should be at 160 by the end of next week? lol.
Anyways.. today I am going to the gym.. getting the eyebrows waxed... going furniture shopping with Matt .. working 5 -9 and then going out for "drinks" with melissa.
Until later my loves! Can't wait to see you all!!!
xxoo
180 pounds.
I was stunned. Never in my life have a felt like that. So I hada yogurt for breakfast, a salad for lunch and a veggie wrap for dinner. I then went to the gym for an hour. I weighed myself again.
176 pounds.
No idea whats going on here. So thursday I have dried fruit for breakfast, small potato salad for lunch, 6 chicken wings for dinner and go to the gym. I weighed myself that night.
174 pounds.
Friday I get up early to go to the gym cause I have to work all day, i have an apple muffin for breakfast, a small potato salad for lunch and a veggie wrap for dinner. I get up this morning and weigh myself.
173 pounds.
I then take a poop. and for kicks weigh myself.
172 pounds.
So according to my scale in 68 hours I have lost;
8 pounds.
Is that actually possible? I don't think so.. but physcologically it makes me feel good. lol. It drove me out of bed this morning to go the gym before my eyebrow waxing appointment! And it will probably drive me not to eat or drink like a pig today. It all seems very strange. However, I would like this on the record.. I am still not happy at 172 pounds. I will be content at 160... but be happy at 150... and at the rate I'm going... I should be at 160 by the end of next week? lol.
Anyways.. today I am going to the gym.. getting the eyebrows waxed... going furniture shopping with Matt .. working 5 -9 and then going out for "drinks" with melissa.
Until later my loves! Can't wait to see you all!!!
xxoo
Friday, June 15, 2007
Why my life is awesome.
Oh lovey's!
Today/yesterday have been absolutely wonderful! Where to begin??
Well.. yesterday morning was a little stressful.. but I was hopeful that Matt would actually call. It was pushing 8pm and there was no call.. so I decided a shower and bed.. well.. i gotta out the shower and my phone rang! Matt! He was so nervous and cute and such! He was like "well this is embarrassing but i cant pick you up because i dont have a car.. can we meet there?".. it was cute.. he was really embarrassed. So we met at starbucks and got a coffee and walked ALL over Sidney for 2 hours.. it was funny. He's the kinda guy that gets so nervous that he just says the first thing that comes to his mouth and then immediately says afterwards.. oh god.. probably shoulda have said that just yet. lol. in a way it was cute. but yeah.. we do have a lot in common and he doesn't need that much saving after all.. ok a little bit of saving.
The checklist?
1) Car? Negative
2) Job Only Part time for BC Ferries
3) Own Place Negative. Lives with Parents
4. More hair products then me? Nope!! Which is a good thing!
BUT this is not over reacting and over thinking.. because checklists are nothing.. i suppose all of these things are very material things... so just no over thinking sigh.
AND THEN.. work went well today.. Kentucky called! I definetly said that I could have the job running his new magazine.. which just happens to be based IN THE GULF ISLANDS! Friggin nuts. He hasn't yet got the publication yet.. but still.. hurray?
AND THEN.. this afternoon I went to Linen n'Things and it was amazing! I baught; a blender, a dinner sit, a block of 23 knife set, a stainless steel garbage can, a 16 set of glasses, a dish drying rack all for under $200 beans! Sooooo.. being the money saver I am *cough* i went to Old Navy.. where for the first time ever.. every pair of pants I tried on.. in my regular size of 12 for the past 4 years FIT ME! my fat bulge is almost gone! Back to regular me! Hurray!
TOnight.. im just vegging out and rewarding myself with movies and wings!
what a good few days! h. and ps. t-minus 15 days until my new place. t-minue 42 days until Toronto!
xxoo
Today/yesterday have been absolutely wonderful! Where to begin??
Well.. yesterday morning was a little stressful.. but I was hopeful that Matt would actually call. It was pushing 8pm and there was no call.. so I decided a shower and bed.. well.. i gotta out the shower and my phone rang! Matt! He was so nervous and cute and such! He was like "well this is embarrassing but i cant pick you up because i dont have a car.. can we meet there?".. it was cute.. he was really embarrassed. So we met at starbucks and got a coffee and walked ALL over Sidney for 2 hours.. it was funny. He's the kinda guy that gets so nervous that he just says the first thing that comes to his mouth and then immediately says afterwards.. oh god.. probably shoulda have said that just yet. lol. in a way it was cute. but yeah.. we do have a lot in common and he doesn't need that much saving after all.. ok a little bit of saving.
The checklist?
1) Car? Negative
2) Job Only Part time for BC Ferries
3) Own Place Negative. Lives with Parents
4. More hair products then me? Nope!! Which is a good thing!
BUT this is not over reacting and over thinking.. because checklists are nothing.. i suppose all of these things are very material things... so just no over thinking sigh.
AND THEN.. work went well today.. Kentucky called! I definetly said that I could have the job running his new magazine.. which just happens to be based IN THE GULF ISLANDS! Friggin nuts. He hasn't yet got the publication yet.. but still.. hurray?
AND THEN.. this afternoon I went to Linen n'Things and it was amazing! I baught; a blender, a dinner sit, a block of 23 knife set, a stainless steel garbage can, a 16 set of glasses, a dish drying rack all for under $200 beans! Sooooo.. being the money saver I am *cough* i went to Old Navy.. where for the first time ever.. every pair of pants I tried on.. in my regular size of 12 for the past 4 years FIT ME! my fat bulge is almost gone! Back to regular me! Hurray!
TOnight.. im just vegging out and rewarding myself with movies and wings!
what a good few days! h. and ps. t-minus 15 days until my new place. t-minue 42 days until Toronto!
xxoo
Wednesday, June 13, 2007
Oh the discouragement of it all.
Oh my Oh my. I know I should be so excited and spending money like a mad woman for my new apartment but alas.. i find it frustrating cause I'm so concerned about matching and looking good and then i get caught up with how much money I do and don't want to spend. AHAH.
The conundrum today? Do you buy the mattress first? Or the bed frame first? YIKES! I know I know it really shouldn't be that difficult of a decision.. of course.. the money is mostly an issue.. cause really.. how much is too much to spend on a mattress and a box spring?? AHHH!
I think i probably went to our different furniture stores today.. and couldn't decide on anything! AH! not even dish towels! AH! It's damn near official. I'll be moving into the apartment with the clothes on my back. It'll take me 10 minutes to unpack. hahaha.
boo.
in other lands.. Matt and I made tentitive plans to hook up today.. but then I went to town without him and then he went golfing at 7:30.. so it didn't really workout.. BUT he did call me to say he was sorry he didn't know thats what the boys had planned.. but that if i wanted to hook up tomorrow we could.. or friday.. but he was going up island this weekend but maybe even next week. so cute. i'm just gonna say this once... and in a light and airy way.. it is so nice not to feel that dramatic feeling i always feel when i first hook up with a boy. I don't know if you know what I mean.. but I always feel really anxious and annoyed and always find a reason not to hang out with him and then I obsess over it and so on and so forth AND they always turn out to be weird strange guys or that I'm always persuing them.. but really.. this just seems so natural. No scaryness... no nervousness.. i didn't even debate whether or not to call him back or not. I just did it. Such a nice feeling.
He said he'd call me tomorrow when i'm done work. sigh.
ps. apparently im avoiding melissa now. really im just avoiding running with her. she'll actually make me do it. lol. booo
the end!
pss. SOUTH AFRICA AMY! HONESTLY! I'M IN SHOCK!
The conundrum today? Do you buy the mattress first? Or the bed frame first? YIKES! I know I know it really shouldn't be that difficult of a decision.. of course.. the money is mostly an issue.. cause really.. how much is too much to spend on a mattress and a box spring?? AHHH!
I think i probably went to our different furniture stores today.. and couldn't decide on anything! AH! not even dish towels! AH! It's damn near official. I'll be moving into the apartment with the clothes on my back. It'll take me 10 minutes to unpack. hahaha.
boo.
in other lands.. Matt and I made tentitive plans to hook up today.. but then I went to town without him and then he went golfing at 7:30.. so it didn't really workout.. BUT he did call me to say he was sorry he didn't know thats what the boys had planned.. but that if i wanted to hook up tomorrow we could.. or friday.. but he was going up island this weekend but maybe even next week. so cute. i'm just gonna say this once... and in a light and airy way.. it is so nice not to feel that dramatic feeling i always feel when i first hook up with a boy. I don't know if you know what I mean.. but I always feel really anxious and annoyed and always find a reason not to hang out with him and then I obsess over it and so on and so forth AND they always turn out to be weird strange guys or that I'm always persuing them.. but really.. this just seems so natural. No scaryness... no nervousness.. i didn't even debate whether or not to call him back or not. I just did it. Such a nice feeling.
He said he'd call me tomorrow when i'm done work. sigh.
ps. apparently im avoiding melissa now. really im just avoiding running with her. she'll actually make me do it. lol. booo
the end!
pss. SOUTH AFRICA AMY! HONESTLY! I'M IN SHOCK!
Sunday, June 10, 2007
I don't want to get anyones hopes up but...
I may in fact have a love life. No no.. let me rephrase. I have met a boy.. whom.. still likes me even tho I did make a giganitc ass out of myself in an extreme drunken state. Really. Thats how great he is. lol.
I may have mentioned that absolutely ridiculous party i went to with melissa a few weekends back? well the guy matt. not only did he hunt me down on facebook.. we are still chatting and I may have invited him to coffee... in a very non specific way. lol.
We shall see. His friends are all hicks and dirty drug mungers.. but really.. when you stuck in sidney and thats what you've grown up with.. its hard to get out of. I'll be that girl.. the helper outer! lol. No.. i won't try and save him.. just coffee would be nice?
Anyone. The crazies invited me for dinner. I politely declined. I am so over them. I want them to know it. After last weekends comments.. i am over niceities.. I am over just their crazy antics.. its past just being weird and into rude. I don't need their food. I don't need their charity. And I don't need their basement and hyprocritical/nazi like views.
I don't know if i've mentioned this or not.. but..
I AM SO EXCITED ABOUT MOVING!!!!
ok. until later my pets!
I may have mentioned that absolutely ridiculous party i went to with melissa a few weekends back? well the guy matt. not only did he hunt me down on facebook.. we are still chatting and I may have invited him to coffee... in a very non specific way. lol.
We shall see. His friends are all hicks and dirty drug mungers.. but really.. when you stuck in sidney and thats what you've grown up with.. its hard to get out of. I'll be that girl.. the helper outer! lol. No.. i won't try and save him.. just coffee would be nice?
Anyone. The crazies invited me for dinner. I politely declined. I am so over them. I want them to know it. After last weekends comments.. i am over niceities.. I am over just their crazy antics.. its past just being weird and into rude. I don't need their food. I don't need their charity. And I don't need their basement and hyprocritical/nazi like views.
I don't know if i've mentioned this or not.. but..
I AM SO EXCITED ABOUT MOVING!!!!
ok. until later my pets!
Saturday, June 09, 2007
Ahh my own little slice of peace! AND EXCITEMENT!
Ok. so funny story. The day I went to see the apartment I loved it soo much that i called my mum from outside the building to make sure i wasn't being rash. Then, being in the most excitable state ran downtown to the scotiabank to get a check to give to the landlady. I ran all the way with my phone in my hands.. then after getting to the bank and getting my check.. i proceeded to run all the way back to the apartment withput my phone in my hands.
When i got back to the apartment I soon discovered there was no phone to be had. The landlady was soo nice and we had a laugh and she let me use her phone to call mine half a dozen times.. to no avail. I knew I had left it on the counter at the bank but by the time i would have gotten back to the bank they would have been closed. So i filled out the paper work, and went home. By the time I had reached home Scotiabank had called to tell me my phone was there and that i could pick it up. Such nice people. The next morning I called the landlady to make sure she got all the documents and to thank her. I guess i had stepped out of the office for a moment but she called back and said that scotiabank just called her to tell her they had my phone and she wanted to tell me! So nice.
So by the time I pick up my phone.. its friday afternoon. I was meeting the team downtown anyways so i left early to make it to the bank in time. There were 6 messeges on my phone. Happily enough the first messege was from the Landlady saying that Congratulation the apartment is yours and i hope you found your phone because as much as i'd like to call your house line I think it might be awkward with your current landlords.. so I hope you get this! It was so funny. So i called her back but had to leave a messege but OBVIOUSLY i was so excited!
So excited to the point where i walked to the mall and proceeded to the house and home section of The Bay. lol. I didn't buy anything.. don't worry.. but cheeeeese I wanted to. I've resolved to only start buying things once i can actually measure the apartment and really know what i need. Look at me.. being smart! HA!
I did however, get paid yesterday. So I put my plane ticket on my visa, but then proceeded to pay most of my visa off and then put 500. more on my line of credit. I can so do this. I didn't spend a dime in 2 days! Until yesterday.. but even then.. its was only $40 on parking.. dinner and beers with the work team. So proud of myself. Today I'm not spending anything either.. only free entertainment which includes.. the gym (because its already paid for).. walking.. cleaning.. tanning (because its already paid for) and the doctors. sigh.
PS! My flights are booked! I arrive in Toronto on July 27th at 6:18 pm and then leave from Toronto August 6th at 5:45 pm! Hurray!! Can't wait to see you all. What would you like me to bring you all? I have a large TNA bag that I will be ONLY bringing with only a few pairs of clothing (haha who am i kidding) so i can do art.. or Van Island treasures (they have amazing eco friendly products here) or a tshirt.. or I could just suprise you? hmmm??
Anywho.. thats my exciting week. OH i forgot.. and I gave my resume to Kentucky yesterday afternoon.. so I hope he calls! He saw a copy of the Muskoka Magazine, North Country Business and the Showcase Real Estate and he shat his pants he was so in love. I hope he calls!
Ok team. can't wait to see you all... OH and Laural.. we really should do tea when I'm in TO.. me.. you.. meghan? Would be nice to meet you!
xxoo waffles!
When i got back to the apartment I soon discovered there was no phone to be had. The landlady was soo nice and we had a laugh and she let me use her phone to call mine half a dozen times.. to no avail. I knew I had left it on the counter at the bank but by the time i would have gotten back to the bank they would have been closed. So i filled out the paper work, and went home. By the time I had reached home Scotiabank had called to tell me my phone was there and that i could pick it up. Such nice people. The next morning I called the landlady to make sure she got all the documents and to thank her. I guess i had stepped out of the office for a moment but she called back and said that scotiabank just called her to tell her they had my phone and she wanted to tell me! So nice.
So by the time I pick up my phone.. its friday afternoon. I was meeting the team downtown anyways so i left early to make it to the bank in time. There were 6 messeges on my phone. Happily enough the first messege was from the Landlady saying that Congratulation the apartment is yours and i hope you found your phone because as much as i'd like to call your house line I think it might be awkward with your current landlords.. so I hope you get this! It was so funny. So i called her back but had to leave a messege but OBVIOUSLY i was so excited!
So excited to the point where i walked to the mall and proceeded to the house and home section of The Bay. lol. I didn't buy anything.. don't worry.. but cheeeeese I wanted to. I've resolved to only start buying things once i can actually measure the apartment and really know what i need. Look at me.. being smart! HA!
I did however, get paid yesterday. So I put my plane ticket on my visa, but then proceeded to pay most of my visa off and then put 500. more on my line of credit. I can so do this. I didn't spend a dime in 2 days! Until yesterday.. but even then.. its was only $40 on parking.. dinner and beers with the work team. So proud of myself. Today I'm not spending anything either.. only free entertainment which includes.. the gym (because its already paid for).. walking.. cleaning.. tanning (because its already paid for) and the doctors. sigh.
PS! My flights are booked! I arrive in Toronto on July 27th at 6:18 pm and then leave from Toronto August 6th at 5:45 pm! Hurray!! Can't wait to see you all. What would you like me to bring you all? I have a large TNA bag that I will be ONLY bringing with only a few pairs of clothing (haha who am i kidding) so i can do art.. or Van Island treasures (they have amazing eco friendly products here) or a tshirt.. or I could just suprise you? hmmm??
Anywho.. thats my exciting week. OH i forgot.. and I gave my resume to Kentucky yesterday afternoon.. so I hope he calls! He saw a copy of the Muskoka Magazine, North Country Business and the Showcase Real Estate and he shat his pants he was so in love. I hope he calls!
Ok team. can't wait to see you all... OH and Laural.. we really should do tea when I'm in TO.. me.. you.. meghan? Would be nice to meet you!
xxoo waffles!
Wednesday, June 06, 2007
HURRAY!
OK. So. I may have my apartment. I'm not gonna get too excited but...
WHO AM I KIDDING! IM PUMPED!!!
So its just a one bedroom.. but its on the top floor of a building downtown.. about 4 blocks from the core.. but in a hippy suburb so it's chill and friendly. Its got old wood floors.. a wall of windows.. living room.. dining room.. clean bathroom.. large bedroom.. new appliances.. parking.. elevator.. you know.. its pretty decent really. It is, however, $755 a month. Boooo. But I can handle that with a paycheck. So basically its just budgeting my money that i have to do better. Really.
I can pay off all my monthly bills in one paycheck.. so i have to start doing that.
Posessions I own? Natta. Hellllllllo IKEA!!! and obviously antique row.. which is the street i live on!! HAHAHAHAHH!
onward and upward! no fruitless spending!!!
WHO AM I KIDDING! IM PUMPED!!!
So its just a one bedroom.. but its on the top floor of a building downtown.. about 4 blocks from the core.. but in a hippy suburb so it's chill and friendly. Its got old wood floors.. a wall of windows.. living room.. dining room.. clean bathroom.. large bedroom.. new appliances.. parking.. elevator.. you know.. its pretty decent really. It is, however, $755 a month. Boooo. But I can handle that with a paycheck. So basically its just budgeting my money that i have to do better. Really.
I can pay off all my monthly bills in one paycheck.. so i have to start doing that.
Posessions I own? Natta. Hellllllllo IKEA!!! and obviously antique row.. which is the street i live on!! HAHAHAHAHH!
onward and upward! no fruitless spending!!!
Tuesday, June 05, 2007
Good news.. kinda
I know.. I know.. I was a little reluctant about the line of credit as well.. seeing as I dispise the idea of owing money to ANYONE! But alas.. in this situation.. I have it sorted out.
I did get the credit cause apparently I have the best credit rating available cause i've always paid my bills on time and such. So.. my credit is 10,000. Which is huge amount considering I DON"T need that much. Anyways.. i'm totally in for cheap furniture and have scoped out some stuff from thirft stores around. I mostly just got the credit because although I hate the idea of owing money.. i hate the idea of not having anything for anything in the first place. So.. the credit it mostly just a back up plan.
In other news.. i'm supposed to see an apartment tomorrow afternoon. we'll see. ps. i got your messege yesterday amy.. but couldn't call you back.. and then today i was sick so have been at home all day. i spent the night throwing up.. so.. no work.. until fairways that is.
ok. until later.
I did get the credit cause apparently I have the best credit rating available cause i've always paid my bills on time and such. So.. my credit is 10,000. Which is huge amount considering I DON"T need that much. Anyways.. i'm totally in for cheap furniture and have scoped out some stuff from thirft stores around. I mostly just got the credit because although I hate the idea of owing money.. i hate the idea of not having anything for anything in the first place. So.. the credit it mostly just a back up plan.
In other news.. i'm supposed to see an apartment tomorrow afternoon. we'll see. ps. i got your messege yesterday amy.. but couldn't call you back.. and then today i was sick so have been at home all day. i spent the night throwing up.. so.. no work.. until fairways that is.
ok. until later.
Saturday, June 02, 2007
Desperate times call for desperate measures.
I tell you all what. I wanted to tell you by phone amy.. at least that will be a little more personal.. but I must write it down as well for everyone else. You probably won't read this first anyways.
Monday I went out for lunch with a man named Kentucky Douglas. He is a hippy by nature but a business man in his head. He also owns a large string of magazines/newspapers on the Island. I happen to do all of his corporate printing. Anyways. He calls me up Monday morning because he can't figure out how to change his logo in a word document that he has been using for his invoicing. He offers me to take me to lunch if I can fix it. So i say fine.. he's a pleasant man and never has a negative thing to say about anyone. Anyways.. we go to lunch and it takes me the entirety of 10 minutes to figure his problem out and fix it. He buys me lunch and we sit and talk for an hour. By the time the hour is up, he has divulged that he is in the works of buying up a bunch of magazines in the peninsula and is looking for someone to run one of them. Little did I know but he was basically interviewing me all of the lunch and asked me right there that if he acquired these would I like the job. I said absolutely. He said that I could pick the staff to work with and that if they were coming from out east that he has a house on the ocean that he is more than willing to rent out. I said I was definately interesting.
So thats my huge news for the week basically. I am seeing him again Monday with a copy of the Muskoka Magazine and my resume and we'll see how it goes. Obviously I'm extending an invitation to Amy on this ones.. you can have either sales or creative... but we'll see eh?
In other news... the crazies came home last night. I didn't seem them until when the third sentance that came out of my aunts mouth was "so your bathroom looks like a science experiement". and I said "how do you figure" and she said your shower and toliet are digusting. In which I replied.. I cleaned them on wednesday. Fucking bitch. They are not digusting. I'll admit they could be cleaned more often then I do.. but honestly.. no one is making her use them... and in all honestly what the fuck is she doing in my shower anyways. whore.
Which brings me to my next statement. I'm going to see about a line of credit next week. I don't have enough money to move out and buy furniture all on my own right now.. but that last comment has pushed me right over the edge. I can't live her any longer. So the goal is to get an appointment with the bank as soon as possible so get my own place. Hopefully by july first. I need to get the fuck out of here. Now.
Anyways.. can't wait to see you all soon! 55 days!!
Monday I went out for lunch with a man named Kentucky Douglas. He is a hippy by nature but a business man in his head. He also owns a large string of magazines/newspapers on the Island. I happen to do all of his corporate printing. Anyways. He calls me up Monday morning because he can't figure out how to change his logo in a word document that he has been using for his invoicing. He offers me to take me to lunch if I can fix it. So i say fine.. he's a pleasant man and never has a negative thing to say about anyone. Anyways.. we go to lunch and it takes me the entirety of 10 minutes to figure his problem out and fix it. He buys me lunch and we sit and talk for an hour. By the time the hour is up, he has divulged that he is in the works of buying up a bunch of magazines in the peninsula and is looking for someone to run one of them. Little did I know but he was basically interviewing me all of the lunch and asked me right there that if he acquired these would I like the job. I said absolutely. He said that I could pick the staff to work with and that if they were coming from out east that he has a house on the ocean that he is more than willing to rent out. I said I was definately interesting.
So thats my huge news for the week basically. I am seeing him again Monday with a copy of the Muskoka Magazine and my resume and we'll see how it goes. Obviously I'm extending an invitation to Amy on this ones.. you can have either sales or creative... but we'll see eh?
In other news... the crazies came home last night. I didn't seem them until when the third sentance that came out of my aunts mouth was "so your bathroom looks like a science experiement". and I said "how do you figure" and she said your shower and toliet are digusting. In which I replied.. I cleaned them on wednesday. Fucking bitch. They are not digusting. I'll admit they could be cleaned more often then I do.. but honestly.. no one is making her use them... and in all honestly what the fuck is she doing in my shower anyways. whore.
Which brings me to my next statement. I'm going to see about a line of credit next week. I don't have enough money to move out and buy furniture all on my own right now.. but that last comment has pushed me right over the edge. I can't live her any longer. So the goal is to get an appointment with the bank as soon as possible so get my own place. Hopefully by july first. I need to get the fuck out of here. Now.
Anyways.. can't wait to see you all soon! 55 days!!
Sunday, May 27, 2007
I'd like to make an amendment.
Well.. apparently I was a little drunk this morning when I wrote that first blog too. lol. I had to reread it to remember what i wrote. lol. In anycase.. an amendment.
Melissa and I are still friends. Her ex aaron is not as gross as previously suspected. Krystal still likes me and asked me to go out for drinks sometime.
I am still a hurting unit.
BUT Lindsay is coming over to sidney next saturday so it'll be sweet to see her. AND she officially invited me to her birthday weekend in july – which incidentally is the weekend before I go home.. in anycase... she said that we were gonna go out and have a riot but that there is a special after party secret surprise for me afterwards. lol. and that only her, andy (her boyfriend) and james (andy's cousin) know about it. I did ask if the hot boy from a few weekends ago was going to be there and she said probably not. but that James would be there. Which isn't that good of news for me.. considering i thought the other guy was super hot. lol.
anyhoo... must go. walking to the gym. sigh.
Melissa and I are still friends. Her ex aaron is not as gross as previously suspected. Krystal still likes me and asked me to go out for drinks sometime.
I am still a hurting unit.
BUT Lindsay is coming over to sidney next saturday so it'll be sweet to see her. AND she officially invited me to her birthday weekend in july – which incidentally is the weekend before I go home.. in anycase... she said that we were gonna go out and have a riot but that there is a special after party secret surprise for me afterwards. lol. and that only her, andy (her boyfriend) and james (andy's cousin) know about it. I did ask if the hot boy from a few weekends ago was going to be there and she said probably not. but that James would be there. Which isn't that good of news for me.. considering i thought the other guy was super hot. lol.
anyhoo... must go. walking to the gym. sigh.
Holy Fucking God.
I now know why I don't have too many friends around here. It may be because I have foot and mouth disease. Thats right folks. As soon as I get a little beer into me (and by a little i mean 3 bottles and a bottle of wine) I get all carried away and start speakin without thinkin. Me? Say random nasty things? I know... crazy. lol.
The whole story:
I made plans to go out with Melissa after work last night. I used to work at shoppers with her and now work in China with her. Anyway.. I don't know how it happened but it turned out that she and 3 of her friends came here. So it was Melissa, me, krystal, allen and matt.
We drank out faces off and had a good time until one of melissa's friends called and was like "we're having a party come over" which happened to be a block away. So we go. Beer and Wine in toe.
We get to this "party" and it turns out to be THE most REDNECK affair of me life. Like 4 pickup trucks on the lawn they have some drums and a guitar set up at a bonfire and there are about 20 girls under the age 0f 17. The house is disgusting, the toliet doesn't flush, the sink is filled with puke and there are more boys wearing nascar hats than I could shake a stick at. Well, matt and I decided right away that we don't want to be there.. but don't leave because of melissa and co. It started off creepy and then I got drunker and then I got talkin to people and at some point someone told me that Kristal and Allen were together and then at some point I got offended about something.. and then I went to leave and Allen said something to me and then I guess I told him that I was NOT going to sleep with matt cause I'm not that kinda girl and then everything got carried away and I offended everyone.. ah fuck I don't know. So apparently I walked home alone... locked all the doors and managed to crawl into bed.
So either way... I now have krystals wallet and booze and melissa's sunglasses here and I may have said I'd bring melissa coffee this morning but quite frankly I'm a little unsure as to if we're still friends. lol. ooooops.
i guess we'll find out . All i know is that... i wouldn't be sad if we never went out again.. me and melissa that is... i don't think i can handle myself around her friends.. seeing as they are all hicks and gross. except matt. i'm a little sorry i offended him. but in any case..
I must drink so juice and tylenol and go back to bed. yaaaaarg.
The whole story:
I made plans to go out with Melissa after work last night. I used to work at shoppers with her and now work in China with her. Anyway.. I don't know how it happened but it turned out that she and 3 of her friends came here. So it was Melissa, me, krystal, allen and matt.
We drank out faces off and had a good time until one of melissa's friends called and was like "we're having a party come over" which happened to be a block away. So we go. Beer and Wine in toe.
We get to this "party" and it turns out to be THE most REDNECK affair of me life. Like 4 pickup trucks on the lawn they have some drums and a guitar set up at a bonfire and there are about 20 girls under the age 0f 17. The house is disgusting, the toliet doesn't flush, the sink is filled with puke and there are more boys wearing nascar hats than I could shake a stick at. Well, matt and I decided right away that we don't want to be there.. but don't leave because of melissa and co. It started off creepy and then I got drunker and then I got talkin to people and at some point someone told me that Kristal and Allen were together and then at some point I got offended about something.. and then I went to leave and Allen said something to me and then I guess I told him that I was NOT going to sleep with matt cause I'm not that kinda girl and then everything got carried away and I offended everyone.. ah fuck I don't know. So apparently I walked home alone... locked all the doors and managed to crawl into bed.
So either way... I now have krystals wallet and booze and melissa's sunglasses here and I may have said I'd bring melissa coffee this morning but quite frankly I'm a little unsure as to if we're still friends. lol. ooooops.
i guess we'll find out . All i know is that... i wouldn't be sad if we never went out again.. me and melissa that is... i don't think i can handle myself around her friends.. seeing as they are all hicks and gross. except matt. i'm a little sorry i offended him. but in any case..
I must drink so juice and tylenol and go back to bed. yaaaaarg.
Monday, May 21, 2007
I did a very bad thing last night.
Oh you'd shall all be mad at me. I'll consent to it. In fact if you aren't at least disappointed I'll be disappointed.
I might've been snopping around on Facebook late last night and came across Milly's wall.
( for those of you who do not know milly; a little back ground )
We met in February of 2003. We had a 3 month relationship. It was fun. He then broke up with me for reasons i can't remember. i then hooked up with my neighbour which incidentally was his bestfriend although i didn't know. Continued sleeping with shane, just to piss milly off until the summer. then randomly hooked up with milly again on my birthday in a ditch. and a car. and a park. lol. We then continued our tremoltuous relationship consisting of fighting and fucking. New Years Eve 2005. We hooked up which ended in my breaking all of the cds in his room I could find in a drunken rage in front of his friends wearing only a tshirt and undies. Then randomly saw him a year and bit later at a charity function where everyone including him thought we were going to hook up again. but i said no. anyways.. have talked to him few times since being out here but it always revolves around if we're going to get together soon or so on and so forth.
And then last night I caved. I was funkin around on the internet and came across his facebook and some pictures of this girl getting cozy with him. It drove me insanely jealous. he just moved to Toronto.. so I may have mentioned I'd be in toronto for a few days and he says we should meet up for old times sake.. shit. So let the disappointment begin.
Anyhooo... other then that... i've been workin all weekend. I did get paid on saturday. but apparently China wanted to pay me chinese wages. I worked 20 hours and they only paid me for 9.5. Last time I checked if one works either 4 hours shifts of 6 hour shifts.. there is NO WAY you can be paid for 9.5. idiots.
Other than that... Just chillin today. I've decided that Sundays are NO car days. So i'm walking to the gym in a bit.. then walking to work for 5. Other than that. Laundry.. some cleaning. And enjoying the sun today!
xxoo
I might've been snopping around on Facebook late last night and came across Milly's wall.
( for those of you who do not know milly; a little back ground )
We met in February of 2003. We had a 3 month relationship. It was fun. He then broke up with me for reasons i can't remember. i then hooked up with my neighbour which incidentally was his bestfriend although i didn't know. Continued sleeping with shane, just to piss milly off until the summer. then randomly hooked up with milly again on my birthday in a ditch. and a car. and a park. lol. We then continued our tremoltuous relationship consisting of fighting and fucking. New Years Eve 2005. We hooked up which ended in my breaking all of the cds in his room I could find in a drunken rage in front of his friends wearing only a tshirt and undies. Then randomly saw him a year and bit later at a charity function where everyone including him thought we were going to hook up again. but i said no. anyways.. have talked to him few times since being out here but it always revolves around if we're going to get together soon or so on and so forth.
And then last night I caved. I was funkin around on the internet and came across his facebook and some pictures of this girl getting cozy with him. It drove me insanely jealous. he just moved to Toronto.. so I may have mentioned I'd be in toronto for a few days and he says we should meet up for old times sake.. shit. So let the disappointment begin.
Anyhooo... other then that... i've been workin all weekend. I did get paid on saturday. but apparently China wanted to pay me chinese wages. I worked 20 hours and they only paid me for 9.5. Last time I checked if one works either 4 hours shifts of 6 hour shifts.. there is NO WAY you can be paid for 9.5. idiots.
Other than that... Just chillin today. I've decided that Sundays are NO car days. So i'm walking to the gym in a bit.. then walking to work for 5. Other than that. Laundry.. some cleaning. And enjoying the sun today!
xxoo
Saturday, May 19, 2007
i certainly DO NOT have A TAIL! I have two. sob.
My oh my have some ferocious things happened in the last week.
Tuesday I went to see Feist with Tia. I know I know, but I had bought the ticket like two months ago so felt that I must go, it just so happened that she bought the ticket to the chair right next to me. I any case, it was weird. You know when you go to a concert and you feel like the lead singer is crooning to you? Or talking specifically to you? Well I didnt feel that at all with Feist. I felt like she was faking it. Like she didn't want to be there and that she was just doing her job. Albeit the music was good and enjoyable but everything in between seemed... like hard work. I was a little disappointed. A Tia tail? Well.. she spent much of the beginning of the evening talking shit about boys she'd met on the way to the theatre (which were all completely made up because she's actually terrified to speak to boys) and then when I finally got a moment I tried to tell her about my receipt story and she just starred at me with a blank stare. Like.. not even faking interest. I don't think she has any grounds to think that my stories are made up considering I am ALWAYs the one who introduces her to boys or does the random boy talking in public. She didn't even do a fake smile. I was like "ok. so either thats your jealous face because your life is actually quite dull and not full of cute boys or you have to clean out your ears because that was one damn exciting story." So yeah.
Wednesday I went to the doctor. When my dad was 19 he grew an abcyst on his tailbone that was huge that he had to have surgry on. His mother had to pack his ass with guaze for weeks and he had to wear pantyhose. He couldn't walk or sit for 5 weeks. Well.. a month or so ago beasey got one of these, but she went to the doctors to and they gave her some antibiotics and it shrunk so it didn't hurt anymore. Well my ass started to hurt around the same time. I shouldn't say hurt.. it was just like a dull throb when i say down or touched it. I thought I was just imagining it. So i ignored it until wednesday. Well the doctor made me bend over a table and he felt around my crack and discover TWO sinus's. They are like little golf tee's. The pointy ends gets burrowed in your tailbone and the large end sticks up above the skin. In time they grow and fill themselves with fluid and become extremely painful like my farches. Well the doctor gave me the same antibiotics they gave my sister to stop the inflamation and hopefully stop the growth of these fuckers but he still suggested I get them removed because they will grow and get infected at some point or another. yeah. awesome eh> so he referred me to a surgeon, whom hasn't called yet, but I'm supposed to get my shot in the next week or so anyways so I have to go in and I'll get them to call again so I can get an appointment. I dont particallarly want to have surgery on my ass.. but if that gets me some time off inthe summer.. thats some serious beach time! lol. plus I'll get sick leave. lol.
Thursday? Well because of my meds I can't have alcohol at all.. and sadly enough it was Dylan's and Jenn's going away dinner that night. So I was the DD. boo. We had dinner and it was teary with some laughs. Very sad. So she leaves on Monday AM, suprememly early and her parents are coming tonight to help her pack. So.. she's back to Calgary. But we've already decided I'm visiting in September.. more to come on that.. and probably when I drive home.. which she informed me I will either have to do in October or April because of the Rockies being horrific to drive through in the winter.
As for September. Amy, if you end up going to Calgary in Sept. I'll just meet you there! I know jenn'll find us some crazy shit to do. But I know stacey will want to be with andrew.. and then end up seeing Josh and those fucks... and Im not really interested in that. So we can hang out and I'll hang out with jenn and it'll be awesome!!
Friday? I worked ALL day. from 7am-9pm. Boo. However, yesterday was pay day so I shall be picking up a check today! I dare say it's a pretty sweet deal to get paid every Friday now. And I actually like working at the grocery store. its not so terrible after all.
anyhoo.. must vamous. got loaaads of laundry and book I must start plus the gym and some tanning to be done.. ALL before 5!
love you guys lots! OH and my march was like "well.. have your surgery there and then fly home for your recovery!" and i was like "are you nuts? i'll be having surgery on my ass and you want me to sit on a plane for four hours afterwards?". hilarious!
xxoo!
Tuesday I went to see Feist with Tia. I know I know, but I had bought the ticket like two months ago so felt that I must go, it just so happened that she bought the ticket to the chair right next to me. I any case, it was weird. You know when you go to a concert and you feel like the lead singer is crooning to you? Or talking specifically to you? Well I didnt feel that at all with Feist. I felt like she was faking it. Like she didn't want to be there and that she was just doing her job. Albeit the music was good and enjoyable but everything in between seemed... like hard work. I was a little disappointed. A Tia tail? Well.. she spent much of the beginning of the evening talking shit about boys she'd met on the way to the theatre (which were all completely made up because she's actually terrified to speak to boys) and then when I finally got a moment I tried to tell her about my receipt story and she just starred at me with a blank stare. Like.. not even faking interest. I don't think she has any grounds to think that my stories are made up considering I am ALWAYs the one who introduces her to boys or does the random boy talking in public. She didn't even do a fake smile. I was like "ok. so either thats your jealous face because your life is actually quite dull and not full of cute boys or you have to clean out your ears because that was one damn exciting story." So yeah.
Wednesday I went to the doctor. When my dad was 19 he grew an abcyst on his tailbone that was huge that he had to have surgry on. His mother had to pack his ass with guaze for weeks and he had to wear pantyhose. He couldn't walk or sit for 5 weeks. Well.. a month or so ago beasey got one of these, but she went to the doctors to and they gave her some antibiotics and it shrunk so it didn't hurt anymore. Well my ass started to hurt around the same time. I shouldn't say hurt.. it was just like a dull throb when i say down or touched it. I thought I was just imagining it. So i ignored it until wednesday. Well the doctor made me bend over a table and he felt around my crack and discover TWO sinus's. They are like little golf tee's. The pointy ends gets burrowed in your tailbone and the large end sticks up above the skin. In time they grow and fill themselves with fluid and become extremely painful like my farches. Well the doctor gave me the same antibiotics they gave my sister to stop the inflamation and hopefully stop the growth of these fuckers but he still suggested I get them removed because they will grow and get infected at some point or another. yeah. awesome eh> so he referred me to a surgeon, whom hasn't called yet, but I'm supposed to get my shot in the next week or so anyways so I have to go in and I'll get them to call again so I can get an appointment. I dont particallarly want to have surgery on my ass.. but if that gets me some time off inthe summer.. thats some serious beach time! lol. plus I'll get sick leave. lol.
Thursday? Well because of my meds I can't have alcohol at all.. and sadly enough it was Dylan's and Jenn's going away dinner that night. So I was the DD. boo. We had dinner and it was teary with some laughs. Very sad. So she leaves on Monday AM, suprememly early and her parents are coming tonight to help her pack. So.. she's back to Calgary. But we've already decided I'm visiting in September.. more to come on that.. and probably when I drive home.. which she informed me I will either have to do in October or April because of the Rockies being horrific to drive through in the winter.
As for September. Amy, if you end up going to Calgary in Sept. I'll just meet you there! I know jenn'll find us some crazy shit to do. But I know stacey will want to be with andrew.. and then end up seeing Josh and those fucks... and Im not really interested in that. So we can hang out and I'll hang out with jenn and it'll be awesome!!
Friday? I worked ALL day. from 7am-9pm. Boo. However, yesterday was pay day so I shall be picking up a check today! I dare say it's a pretty sweet deal to get paid every Friday now. And I actually like working at the grocery store. its not so terrible after all.
anyhoo.. must vamous. got loaaads of laundry and book I must start plus the gym and some tanning to be done.. ALL before 5!
love you guys lots! OH and my march was like "well.. have your surgery there and then fly home for your recovery!" and i was like "are you nuts? i'll be having surgery on my ass and you want me to sit on a plane for four hours afterwards?". hilarious!
xxoo!
Monday, May 14, 2007
how could i have forgotten!
Team:
I talked to a gym boy!! Not only did i talk to him. I told him he was hot. and then i turned red. and he smiled and squeezed me. then i ran away. i may have been redonkulously drunk as i've just remember tonight when i wanted to go to the gym. Mind you, it wasn't THE gym boy, but it was one of them. I had made this ridiculous rule that every time you call out that a guy is hot you have to tell him. I broke the rule frist. so had to do it. im such a joke. luckily i was drunk. lol. so. yeah.
man. that's gonna be awkward tomorrow.
On the upside. I get free bakery stuff when i work nights. Deal. Breakfast tomorra? Can we say cinnamon buns? Hurray!
I talked to a gym boy!! Not only did i talk to him. I told him he was hot. and then i turned red. and he smiled and squeezed me. then i ran away. i may have been redonkulously drunk as i've just remember tonight when i wanted to go to the gym. Mind you, it wasn't THE gym boy, but it was one of them. I had made this ridiculous rule that every time you call out that a guy is hot you have to tell him. I broke the rule frist. so had to do it. im such a joke. luckily i was drunk. lol. so. yeah.
man. that's gonna be awkward tomorrow.
On the upside. I get free bakery stuff when i work nights. Deal. Breakfast tomorra? Can we say cinnamon buns? Hurray!
Sunday, May 13, 2007
200 dollars later.
Last night was out of my mind. For everyone involved. Needless to say it was better then my last outing with tia byt 20.
First off, I missed the damn bus to get into town. So jenn drove in from Victoria to pick me up. And then the bus passed us. lol. So. we get to the restuarant, Sauce, where we were meeting Morgan and Erin. Funny funny girls. At this point Erin and Morgan are already a little drunk so I had to catch up. lol. I had two sangrias, and three martini's. lol. and a salad. But I wasn't drunk. Just a little more.. confident? lol. So we're eating when this guy and girl comes in. They are obviously on a first date. They weren't really talking or looking into one anothers eyes, they were just starring around the restuarant. I made the comment tothe girls that he was hot and that they didn't look right together. I then might've made a comment that I should seduce him away from his date... by just spreading my legs in the skirt that i was wearing. I may have said it a little loud. Jenn then said that he was totally checking me out.. and I might've said "he's checkin me out cause he knows I'd put out and she wouldn't." lol. Ok so I was a little drunk. lol. Jenn then erin are watching him and he's totally checking me out and ignoring the girl he was with. So you know what I do?? When we're leaving I wrote my number on my receipt and got up and turned around and looked him in the eyes and he looked me in the eyes. and I handed him my number and he smiled. lol. HILARIOUS!
So we go to Plan B, a bar. I probably had 13 drinks? But wasn't feeling altogether drunk. Did some dancing.. had some laughs.. it was a good time. I'm sorry I don't have more details. to be honest.. there wasn't really anything that stuck out to me.. nothing to special.. just good times. That and i'm a little hungover. lol. I must go find some grease. Perhaps more later.
Oh yeah, I baught a notebook, a leather bound notebook today. I shall start the writing, the old fashion way.
xxoo
First off, I missed the damn bus to get into town. So jenn drove in from Victoria to pick me up. And then the bus passed us. lol. So. we get to the restuarant, Sauce, where we were meeting Morgan and Erin. Funny funny girls. At this point Erin and Morgan are already a little drunk so I had to catch up. lol. I had two sangrias, and three martini's. lol. and a salad. But I wasn't drunk. Just a little more.. confident? lol. So we're eating when this guy and girl comes in. They are obviously on a first date. They weren't really talking or looking into one anothers eyes, they were just starring around the restuarant. I made the comment tothe girls that he was hot and that they didn't look right together. I then might've made a comment that I should seduce him away from his date... by just spreading my legs in the skirt that i was wearing. I may have said it a little loud. Jenn then said that he was totally checking me out.. and I might've said "he's checkin me out cause he knows I'd put out and she wouldn't." lol. Ok so I was a little drunk. lol. Jenn then erin are watching him and he's totally checking me out and ignoring the girl he was with. So you know what I do?? When we're leaving I wrote my number on my receipt and got up and turned around and looked him in the eyes and he looked me in the eyes. and I handed him my number and he smiled. lol. HILARIOUS!
So we go to Plan B, a bar. I probably had 13 drinks? But wasn't feeling altogether drunk. Did some dancing.. had some laughs.. it was a good time. I'm sorry I don't have more details. to be honest.. there wasn't really anything that stuck out to me.. nothing to special.. just good times. That and i'm a little hungover. lol. I must go find some grease. Perhaps more later.
Oh yeah, I baught a notebook, a leather bound notebook today. I shall start the writing, the old fashion way.
xxoo
Saturday, May 12, 2007
Directly off the wagon. Day 2
Team. I suck.
Food consumed today:
1 apple danish freshly baked.
6 potstickers (like little dumplings) made fresh with veggies.
1 box of thia noodles
1 mango lemonade
1 lemonade
2 pieces of pizza
1 pear (i now remember how to spell it)
And that is all before dinner and drinks in victoria. boo!
Exercise done: walked all over Salt Spring Island. possibly dancing later on.
That was all with tia early today on salt spring island. it sure is hippy ville. in an expensive way thats fore sure. I know what i'm bringin back for ya'll in july.
Tonight i'm going out with jenn, her sister and some of her friends downtown. I've made the decision already that i'm not driving into town. i'm taking the bus. so i can get as shittered as i very well please and take a cab home. and then tomorrow there will be hungoverednes and cleaning. boo. i suppose i should also go to the gym or do some exercise of some such.
until then my pets..
xxoo ciao babas
Food consumed today:
1 apple danish freshly baked.
6 potstickers (like little dumplings) made fresh with veggies.
1 box of thia noodles
1 mango lemonade
1 lemonade
2 pieces of pizza
1 pear (i now remember how to spell it)
And that is all before dinner and drinks in victoria. boo!
Exercise done: walked all over Salt Spring Island. possibly dancing later on.
That was all with tia early today on salt spring island. it sure is hippy ville. in an expensive way thats fore sure. I know what i'm bringin back for ya'll in july.
Tonight i'm going out with jenn, her sister and some of her friends downtown. I've made the decision already that i'm not driving into town. i'm taking the bus. so i can get as shittered as i very well please and take a cab home. and then tomorrow there will be hungoverednes and cleaning. boo. i suppose i should also go to the gym or do some exercise of some such.
until then my pets..
xxoo ciao babas
Friday, May 11, 2007
Day One of OGFW. I need better letters.
Day one.
I suck. SO far.
Breakfast: Large Hot Chocolate $2.25
Snack: 5 timbits (i know. and they were the powder sugar ones with filling)
Lunch: 3 Bowls Strawberries (no sugar and they were spaced out in a 4 hour time
frame)
Dinner: 1 Bosc Pare (which i all of a sudden can't spell).
2 Glasses of Organic Apple Juice
2 Small Yogurts with fruit in the bottom (low fat)
The Gym: 20 Minutes Fast walking on the treadmill
20 Minutes on the Eliptical
4 reps of 12 on the Ab machine
4 reps of 12 on the thigh master (obviously not the right name)
4 reps of 10 on hang & lift knees to chin machine (am i good or what?)
1 1.5L bottle of evian. (so posh of me eh?)
How do i feel? Not hungrey. But still starring at the spare tractor tire around my waist.
Perhaps I'll try the swimming.. but i'll have to buy a real bathing suit for that.. since I don't think the other swimmers will enjoy my boobs busting out of the itsy bitsy teenie weenie red and green flowered bikini i will be sporting this summer.
Thanks team!
I suck. SO far.
Breakfast: Large Hot Chocolate $2.25
Snack: 5 timbits (i know. and they were the powder sugar ones with filling)
Lunch: 3 Bowls Strawberries (no sugar and they were spaced out in a 4 hour time
frame)
Dinner: 1 Bosc Pare (which i all of a sudden can't spell).
2 Glasses of Organic Apple Juice
2 Small Yogurts with fruit in the bottom (low fat)
The Gym: 20 Minutes Fast walking on the treadmill
20 Minutes on the Eliptical
4 reps of 12 on the Ab machine
4 reps of 12 on the thigh master (obviously not the right name)
4 reps of 10 on hang & lift knees to chin machine (am i good or what?)
1 1.5L bottle of evian. (so posh of me eh?)
How do i feel? Not hungrey. But still starring at the spare tractor tire around my waist.
Perhaps I'll try the swimming.. but i'll have to buy a real bathing suit for that.. since I don't think the other swimmers will enjoy my boobs busting out of the itsy bitsy teenie weenie red and green flowered bikini i will be sporting this summer.
Thanks team!
Thursday, May 10, 2007
I am a happy duck.
For once in my lifetime, and when i say lifetime i mean the last 6 months, I am happy to look in the mirror. I looked in the mirror this evening after my shower. after the gym. and after tanning (which i know by the way will age me fast then time itself). and i was happy with what I say. I got into the bathing suit i baught last summer and I felt happy with what i saw. hurray!
but that does not mean Operation Get Fit Wasage was not started today. Thats right. I've made the commitment as of this moment. Today, I went the gym and ate chicken and potato salad for dinner. mind you.. not much else today. but still. On the right path. I will be thin (and when i say think i mean my stomach will no longer look like its may have a mind of its own and my thighs will no longer touching when i walk/stand still/move. Deal? Deal. I've had enough. Meghan does her bike riding. Lindsay does her running. I must find something to do on a regular basis that will keep me moving/entertained and losing weight. Im up for ideas. Feesable ones.
AND. I'm saving up for my new place again. No more frivaless spending. I will not say where the new place is. When I find it I will find it and I will move there. It may in fact be Ottawa. Toronto. Australia. Prague. Victoria. Vancouver. Ethiopia. You heard me. So. Just saving. Following the rules of that book march and farch gave me. Mind you, I haven't yet read it, but farch gave me the jist of it.
SO! china is funny. secretly i hate it. but only cause i work nights and don't have to actually talk to the craziest of the craziest chinese women that works there that only works during the day. sigh.
OK so my frozen fruit is no longer frozen and ready for yummy yummy eating. mmmmmm ..so if ya'll excuse me.
OH. so i started that womans blog. the memoirs of the fat lady... and so far.. im not exactly intrigued. I've seen vague quiz after vague quiz. apparently it will get better. im waaaaiting.
xxoo
but that does not mean Operation Get Fit Wasage was not started today. Thats right. I've made the commitment as of this moment. Today, I went the gym and ate chicken and potato salad for dinner. mind you.. not much else today. but still. On the right path. I will be thin (and when i say think i mean my stomach will no longer look like its may have a mind of its own and my thighs will no longer touching when i walk/stand still/move. Deal? Deal. I've had enough. Meghan does her bike riding. Lindsay does her running. I must find something to do on a regular basis that will keep me moving/entertained and losing weight. Im up for ideas. Feesable ones.
AND. I'm saving up for my new place again. No more frivaless spending. I will not say where the new place is. When I find it I will find it and I will move there. It may in fact be Ottawa. Toronto. Australia. Prague. Victoria. Vancouver. Ethiopia. You heard me. So. Just saving. Following the rules of that book march and farch gave me. Mind you, I haven't yet read it, but farch gave me the jist of it.
SO! china is funny. secretly i hate it. but only cause i work nights and don't have to actually talk to the craziest of the craziest chinese women that works there that only works during the day. sigh.
OK so my frozen fruit is no longer frozen and ready for yummy yummy eating. mmmmmm ..so if ya'll excuse me.
OH. so i started that womans blog. the memoirs of the fat lady... and so far.. im not exactly intrigued. I've seen vague quiz after vague quiz. apparently it will get better. im waaaaiting.
xxoo
Monday, May 07, 2007
A discussion vs. preaching.
The other day, a girl a used to work with added me to facebook. I worked with her at shoppers and have had a few drunken occassions with her. I also know that her dad is a full blown minister.
If there is one thing in life that I support it is the choice to make decisions about your body. Ashley, the girl from above, had joined an anti-abortion group. Now hear me out here. Without saying what I believe in or what I don't believe in, I absolutely 100% think its rude and not showing much empathy to human beings when you create or join on Facebook about Abortions.
I told her so. I said "I can understand and empathize with your right to not ever choose to get an abortion, but it saddens me that someone with your compassion and faith would join a "witch hunt" to change the minds of people who believe differently".
I don't care you if you would or wouldn't get an abortion. The decision should be a personal one, not one you should have to defend to a crowd, a person or a nation. No one in the world is every proud to say they've had an abortion, but if you've never been in the situation that one person was in.. how can you judge?
Just sayin is all.
So.. work in china? thats fun. at the moment I'm a little worked up so i'll comment later on working for Fu Man Choo.
xxoo
If there is one thing in life that I support it is the choice to make decisions about your body. Ashley, the girl from above, had joined an anti-abortion group. Now hear me out here. Without saying what I believe in or what I don't believe in, I absolutely 100% think its rude and not showing much empathy to human beings when you create or join on Facebook about Abortions.
I told her so. I said "I can understand and empathize with your right to not ever choose to get an abortion, but it saddens me that someone with your compassion and faith would join a "witch hunt" to change the minds of people who believe differently".
I don't care you if you would or wouldn't get an abortion. The decision should be a personal one, not one you should have to defend to a crowd, a person or a nation. No one in the world is every proud to say they've had an abortion, but if you've never been in the situation that one person was in.. how can you judge?
Just sayin is all.
So.. work in china? thats fun. at the moment I'm a little worked up so i'll comment later on working for Fu Man Choo.
xxoo
Sunday, May 06, 2007
oh this is gonne be special...
Team. Its been a funkin long weekend.. and by shit.. its not even over yet.
1. So i went to Vancouver Friday night to see Lindsay with promises of boys.. booze and good times. We'll there was booze and lots of boys.. but were lacking the party mode I was definately in. There musta been 20 guys there.. and then me and lindsay and kylie as the girls. it was a little strange. THere were some hot ones.. but everyone was gone by 12:00. So we got stoned. I haven't been stoned since being here.. but shit.. I had one toke and I was out. So I was passed out by 12:30. Tried to set my alarm on my phone.. that didn't work. Woke up at 6:30 to catch the 7am ferry. Fucking missed it. Was late to the new job by and hour! Needless to say they weren't impressed.
So the new job... I work at Fairways Market. Apparently, it used to be owned by a Chinese couple.. and they only hired Chinese staff. not a word of a lie. Me, Melissa and Elysa are the only "canadian" girls in that store. Its kinda strange. In fact its thoroughly annoying. Its bad enough being trained at a job you can do in your sleep.. but having a chinese woman who speaks enlish a little.... and feels the need to repeat everything she says 12 times. dear god.
Well team. Today I am going back. And then possibly to a bbq tonight. until later.
xxoo
1. So i went to Vancouver Friday night to see Lindsay with promises of boys.. booze and good times. We'll there was booze and lots of boys.. but were lacking the party mode I was definately in. There musta been 20 guys there.. and then me and lindsay and kylie as the girls. it was a little strange. THere were some hot ones.. but everyone was gone by 12:00. So we got stoned. I haven't been stoned since being here.. but shit.. I had one toke and I was out. So I was passed out by 12:30. Tried to set my alarm on my phone.. that didn't work. Woke up at 6:30 to catch the 7am ferry. Fucking missed it. Was late to the new job by and hour! Needless to say they weren't impressed.
So the new job... I work at Fairways Market. Apparently, it used to be owned by a Chinese couple.. and they only hired Chinese staff. not a word of a lie. Me, Melissa and Elysa are the only "canadian" girls in that store. Its kinda strange. In fact its thoroughly annoying. Its bad enough being trained at a job you can do in your sleep.. but having a chinese woman who speaks enlish a little.... and feels the need to repeat everything she says 12 times. dear god.
Well team. Today I am going back. And then possibly to a bbq tonight. until later.
xxoo
Thursday, May 03, 2007
a jobwhore for life.
Oh hello! I'm sorry, I've been busy the last few weeks. But thats good news right? No mopping around feeling sorry for myself. I've been working hard, by not over doing it.
It came to me in a minute. The company's problems are not my problems. So now I dont worry about it too much. However, I do have a new job. Just a part time one, at the locol market. 9 buck an hour as a cashier? how could i not. anyways.. i will always have at least one day off for adventures.
Last weekend we went to Port Renfrew, beach combing. It was amazing. Oh. When i say we, i mean my a jenn. and when i say jenn, i mean my eyebrowist. lol. No, we're friends now.. and shes amazing. Cept she's moving back to Calgary cause she, like me, is finding victorians a little snobby. lol. a story from last weekend? well.. after we hit the beaches we went to this roadside cafe/restuarant to get some food. well.. the guys next to us were eating their freshly caught crab and boy were we eyeing it. it looked so good. so they gave us some! GAVE us two crabs! friggin crazy right? what next? well.. we were just chatting with them and they gave us some halibut. fresh-to-the-point-of-swimming-in-the-damn-ocean that morning. So we drove back to Sidney with a damn 70lb fish in a damn bucket in my damn trunk. so hilarious.
THis weekend.. I'm heading to Vancouver too see my friend Lindsay. I worked with her at shoppers in belleville during... second year? I was going to drive out here with her then.. but then i had to move home. needless to say she was pissed and hasn't talked to me til... well..when i moved out here. lol. so.. she's over it.. and now i'm going over friday afterwork.. partying our brains out.. apparently she nows a LOAD of single boys with careers... and then taking the 7am ferry back home saturday morning so i can go to the new job saturday at 9:30. dear god i know. the good news is the ferry ride is almost two hours.. so i can nap. lol. Sunday, jenn and i are going adventuring in gold stream park then to a bbq of one of the girls she works with. busy weekend i suspect.
so as you can tell.. im no longer moppy.. and considering moving out again. maybe i won't come home just yet? I am coming home in july for sure.. cause i need some friend and family time.. but not to stay for now i suppose.
ps. thanks laurel for you support.. its nice to hear from you!
miss ya heaps and heaps.. and still can't wait for july to come around!
xxoo
Saturday, April 21, 2007
and the plans change again?
1. What kinda money can you put in a man who when he has you he doesn't want a commitment and when he doesn't have you he's willing to commit in a minute? So is the case with Steveo. Pros and Cons.
Pros:
He makes a lot of money.
He just baught a brand new car.
He admitted he was an ass.
He admitted he had feelings for me.
Wants me to come see him.
Wants to find out if we can have a future.
Claims to want to move back to Ontario to be with me.
He has a huge heart.
He has gone out of his way for me when I need him.
Cons:
He once told a guy i was seeing that I was a slut so that we could get back together.
He slept with his ex after we made plans to get together for grad.
He never wanted commitment before.
He doesn't have his own place (living with family in florida right now).
He's a pot smoker. Heavy.
He's slept with quite a few people.
I sometimes think he is a nympho?
So what do we think? I like the sound of everything he says now (including wanting to take me to London, England and be extreme tourists) but from what has happened in the past I'm a little suspicious. I've said that I will be moving back to Ontario, not for him, but for me. If he shows up at my door and says everything he's said in the last week.. i might give him another chance. maybe. so there.
2. Everyone at the company I work at who knows what they are doing are wanting to quit. Some have had job offers. Others are waiting for the paperwork to quit and some have already quit. My job, currently is already retardedly stressfull. We all know that. If everyone who knows how to do their job leaves that puts me in a humungously terrible situation. so the question is.. when everyone leaves.. do I stay and stress myself out to the max or do I leave too? From what everyone is saying.. I probably have til june 1st until I need to make a desicion. But believe you/me... my job will suck if they leave.
3. I did some gardening today. yes you heard me right. lol. It was fun. But I am sore now. Sigh. And the funny thing is.. the crazies will get back this week and be like "oh. well." and hate it. I know it. lol. Oh well. Anyhoo. My head feels like it may explode so I'm gonna have a nap. Was supposed to hang out with tis tonight but i bailed. My head feels like there is a balloon expanding in it as we speak.
Until another date..
xxoo
Pros:
He makes a lot of money.
He just baught a brand new car.
He admitted he was an ass.
He admitted he had feelings for me.
Wants me to come see him.
Wants to find out if we can have a future.
Claims to want to move back to Ontario to be with me.
He has a huge heart.
He has gone out of his way for me when I need him.
Cons:
He once told a guy i was seeing that I was a slut so that we could get back together.
He slept with his ex after we made plans to get together for grad.
He never wanted commitment before.
He doesn't have his own place (living with family in florida right now).
He's a pot smoker. Heavy.
He's slept with quite a few people.
I sometimes think he is a nympho?
So what do we think? I like the sound of everything he says now (including wanting to take me to London, England and be extreme tourists) but from what has happened in the past I'm a little suspicious. I've said that I will be moving back to Ontario, not for him, but for me. If he shows up at my door and says everything he's said in the last week.. i might give him another chance. maybe. so there.
2. Everyone at the company I work at who knows what they are doing are wanting to quit. Some have had job offers. Others are waiting for the paperwork to quit and some have already quit. My job, currently is already retardedly stressfull. We all know that. If everyone who knows how to do their job leaves that puts me in a humungously terrible situation. so the question is.. when everyone leaves.. do I stay and stress myself out to the max or do I leave too? From what everyone is saying.. I probably have til june 1st until I need to make a desicion. But believe you/me... my job will suck if they leave.
3. I did some gardening today. yes you heard me right. lol. It was fun. But I am sore now. Sigh. And the funny thing is.. the crazies will get back this week and be like "oh. well." and hate it. I know it. lol. Oh well. Anyhoo. My head feels like it may explode so I'm gonna have a nap. Was supposed to hang out with tis tonight but i bailed. My head feels like there is a balloon expanding in it as we speak.
Until another date..
xxoo
Monday, April 16, 2007
How to make yourself feel better: by Waffleonious.
THis weekend was horrific. Althought I think I have found a few short tricks to make me feel better.
a) get a new computer. i know. a little expensive. thats why i didn't buy it. but myron baught me a beauty 20" imac. I heart it. It made the first part of the day happy.
b) explain to people why you are upset. i told gary i wasn't upset that he didn't tell me about mike, i was upset becuase he lied to my face.
c) find a boy who will shamelessly make you feel like the queen of the world. this one was easy. steveo messeged me again last night. not only did he want me to come to florida he admited that he has fucked up royally with me and that if he ever gets the chance again he won't let me go. I said I might move to ottawa in november, he said he would follow me and hunt me down and then we could be togehter. we all secretly know this won't happen.. but i really can't help but dream about it right? lol.
d) watch that cleaning show with the two british cleaners. hilarious. your life never seems as bad as those digusting people on the W channel. In fact the one on here right now is so digusting that... well.. she's just gross.
e) talk to amy on the tele on the companys phone bill for 45 minutes. nuff said.
f) do some money counting and decide what you are going to do with it at that time (i am only going to spend money on food and gas for the next 8 months then get a lovely apartment in ottawa/toronto and get a job that will not be as stressful as my current one.)
g) laugh at funny things. because you can.
and those things are things that don't suck today!
xxoo
a) get a new computer. i know. a little expensive. thats why i didn't buy it. but myron baught me a beauty 20" imac. I heart it. It made the first part of the day happy.
b) explain to people why you are upset. i told gary i wasn't upset that he didn't tell me about mike, i was upset becuase he lied to my face.
c) find a boy who will shamelessly make you feel like the queen of the world. this one was easy. steveo messeged me again last night. not only did he want me to come to florida he admited that he has fucked up royally with me and that if he ever gets the chance again he won't let me go. I said I might move to ottawa in november, he said he would follow me and hunt me down and then we could be togehter. we all secretly know this won't happen.. but i really can't help but dream about it right? lol.
d) watch that cleaning show with the two british cleaners. hilarious. your life never seems as bad as those digusting people on the W channel. In fact the one on here right now is so digusting that... well.. she's just gross.
e) talk to amy on the tele on the companys phone bill for 45 minutes. nuff said.
f) do some money counting and decide what you are going to do with it at that time (i am only going to spend money on food and gas for the next 8 months then get a lovely apartment in ottawa/toronto and get a job that will not be as stressful as my current one.)
g) laugh at funny things. because you can.
and those things are things that don't suck today!
xxoo
Sunday, April 15, 2007
Maybe I was just being dramatic.. but probably not.
I don't really know where to start. That last post pretty much summed it up.
The night started out great. We had fun at my house drinking tequila, making ffajitas and listening to gloria estafan.. lol. We took the bus into town which was fun cause it was a double decker! We got to the bar and it all went down hill. I had 8 drinks at the bar... and it wasn't... how do you say.. really drunk? Like.. i was.. but I wasn't because tequila effects you differently? anyways.. we were dancing but just being shoved around and around. Tia spotted a guy she thought was good looking and his friend who was exactly good looking.. so we went up to ask them to dance.. i even asked the ugly guy and he laughed at me. asshole. so we go back to the dance floor and are having a little less fun when I have to go the bathroom. Its crammed packed with girls doing their makeup.. i had excuse myself into the bathroom just to wash my hands. and what did they all do.. look at me like I just puked on them. Needless to say they were all dressed like they were getting ready to get back on their poles. So we go out to do some dancing.. a boy starts dancing with me... fine.. when all of random sudden he grabs my hands and crams them on his dick. like honestly. it was indeed hard as a rock but still.. i was not interested. I tried to get away but tia wasn't getting the message so i turned away from him and he jumped his hands down the back of my pants. I was not having any of that! I slapped him and we left the dance floor. We probably stood around and watched for 30 minutes when I decided to ask another cute boy to dance.. he was like "im drinking right now" all i said was "you could just said no thanks". jackasses.
So I'm not happy. We finally decide to leave as my feet are absolutely murdering me. We go to a pizze joint where I don't know how the tears started but the guy making the pizza was from barrie and one of the customers was from ottawa and there I was balling my eyes out in the pizza shop with the only two people there actually caring we not the person I came with. Yeah know what Tias reaction was? "So go home then. Don't be wimp. Most of my friends go to school in Vancouver I know how it feels". I was like "you have no idea. You can pay the 9 bucks to take the ferry to see them. I live 5 days and over 700 dollars away from EVERYONE I know." and all she could say "whats stopping you. go home then". bitch. i then proceeded to pay the entire cab ride (45$) made her damn bed for her.. and then when I got up this morning.. she had just left the mess (including the couch and blankets) everywhere. Fuck.
So I'll probably come home once I get some moola saved up. I'll probably stay til next November/December but I'll be home for Christmas. Just need to save up some money and rack up the experience at work so I can get a good job when I get back.
In other news? SteveO talked to me last night. He asked me to come out and see him in Florida. Not bloody likely.
Soo now I am going to clean up my messy dungeon, clean up myself and then go for a bike ride into town to get some lunch.
xoo
The night started out great. We had fun at my house drinking tequila, making ffajitas and listening to gloria estafan.. lol. We took the bus into town which was fun cause it was a double decker! We got to the bar and it all went down hill. I had 8 drinks at the bar... and it wasn't... how do you say.. really drunk? Like.. i was.. but I wasn't because tequila effects you differently? anyways.. we were dancing but just being shoved around and around. Tia spotted a guy she thought was good looking and his friend who was exactly good looking.. so we went up to ask them to dance.. i even asked the ugly guy and he laughed at me. asshole. so we go back to the dance floor and are having a little less fun when I have to go the bathroom. Its crammed packed with girls doing their makeup.. i had excuse myself into the bathroom just to wash my hands. and what did they all do.. look at me like I just puked on them. Needless to say they were all dressed like they were getting ready to get back on their poles. So we go out to do some dancing.. a boy starts dancing with me... fine.. when all of random sudden he grabs my hands and crams them on his dick. like honestly. it was indeed hard as a rock but still.. i was not interested. I tried to get away but tia wasn't getting the message so i turned away from him and he jumped his hands down the back of my pants. I was not having any of that! I slapped him and we left the dance floor. We probably stood around and watched for 30 minutes when I decided to ask another cute boy to dance.. he was like "im drinking right now" all i said was "you could just said no thanks". jackasses.
So I'm not happy. We finally decide to leave as my feet are absolutely murdering me. We go to a pizze joint where I don't know how the tears started but the guy making the pizza was from barrie and one of the customers was from ottawa and there I was balling my eyes out in the pizza shop with the only two people there actually caring we not the person I came with. Yeah know what Tias reaction was? "So go home then. Don't be wimp. Most of my friends go to school in Vancouver I know how it feels". I was like "you have no idea. You can pay the 9 bucks to take the ferry to see them. I live 5 days and over 700 dollars away from EVERYONE I know." and all she could say "whats stopping you. go home then". bitch. i then proceeded to pay the entire cab ride (45$) made her damn bed for her.. and then when I got up this morning.. she had just left the mess (including the couch and blankets) everywhere. Fuck.
So I'll probably come home once I get some moola saved up. I'll probably stay til next November/December but I'll be home for Christmas. Just need to save up some money and rack up the experience at work so I can get a good job when I get back.
In other news? SteveO talked to me last night. He asked me to come out and see him in Florida. Not bloody likely.
Soo now I am going to clean up my messy dungeon, clean up myself and then go for a bike ride into town to get some lunch.
xoo
2:04 AND IT'S CONFIRMED
i am very drunk. but have cried more today then any othe rday then sin c being here. i hate bc. don't come here. it horrible. i cried and no one cared but the other two people from ontario ( the pizza making guy and a random custoer). in short. i wll be home in time for christmas next year. i will exabd tomooraw.
zzoo more then ever.
zzoo more then ever.
Saturday, April 14, 2007
Betrayed or just not a confidant?
I suppose a few things have happened in the last few days that require some thinking.
a) My Indigo Pressman (Mike - drama boy extrodinaire) told myself and my boss that he needed to take a 6 week hiadus because of serious personal problems. I dislike the kid on a personal level, but respect the work he does, and he knows that. I was a little perturbed that he was going to take 6 weeks off, especially when its been so busy, but for personal reason.. one cannot be mad. I've asked everyone if they knew what the personal reasons were. Everyone. Even gary, whom I have come to trust with everything!. No one had any answers, they all claimed to not know. So be it. Then Christina, My Island Art Sales Person, was supposed to have her 3 month review last week and I never got a chance to ask how it went, mostly out of friendliness, but I hadn't seen much of her. Ok, so be it. Last night was our month going on the town with the work crew thing. We always go to the same bar and have too many drinks and a good time. Randomly I over heard that Mike actually took 6 weeks off to take another job because he hated the Indigo press job so much and was planning to not come back. He told everyone but me. No one thought to tell me. If he doesn't come back in.. it'll be more than 2 months before we can find a reasonable replacement and will not be able to keep up with the already piling jobs. Not only was it unfair to do this to me, it was unfair to do this to everyone in the company and the fact that everyone lied to me about it completely mistifies me. ON TOP of that, I asked Gary how Christina review went, just curioius like, and he said he didn't know. Another lie. Apparently she gave her notice. Fucking fantastic.
b) jamie (cute boy from vancouver) is 30. Thats only 8 years, but seriously, I want a man with responsibilites, but not 8 years more than me right now. lol. Im so picky. I know.
c) Going out with Tia tonight. Should hopefully be a good time. Seriously craving some crazy drunken dancing! And possibley a little male attention? lol. Not any of the take home type, even just some random conversation would be healthy! Last night, at the bar we go to.. i just normally wear what i wore to work, being a cute little coral tshirt, jeans and flipflops.. lol.. and this uniquely good looking boy who might've been a bouncer walked by us probably 14 times and on the 14th time just before I left, he walked from one side of the bar to the other starring at my boobs. I watched him the entire way and he didn't notice cause he was looking at my tits. I thought it was hilarious! I laughed out loud! lol. Apparently most of the weight that i've gained back has moved to my boobs. They are huge. Booooo. On another funny note, one of the girls I work with, Galadrial, she's gay. Not exciting I know, but last night one of the bartenders who normally serves us got absolutely shitfaced and randomly started like making out with her but then confessed that she had a boyfriend that she was moving in with next week.. but really it was hilarious. galadrial is such a bump on the log when it comes ot meeting women its so funny when one actually hits on her.
um... yup thats about it for now. I'm going into town in a few to get some groceries and am considering picking up a fish while downtown. Or a snail. lol. Just something I can talk to when i get home eh? lol. Not in a desperate way.. more in a funny.. married to my pets kinda way.. I'm thinking it will be a good way to destress. lol. sigh.
And thats that!
OH. MAIL!. There should be things about to arrive in Chesterville and in Toronot and in Bracebridge any moment now. Meghan.. your may in fact be broken but I hope not. Amy.. yours is funny. Beasey.. you cannot open yours to your birthday. Tada! And I got your "future postcard" today amy.. love it. my bulletin board is just full of letters from you guys.. its nice to look at!
OH. and the other day I saw chickens randomly on the side of the high just walking along in a row and I laughed really hard. I don't know what that says about the stress level of my job but.. lol.. if chickens can crack me up.. maybe i need to destress a little? lol.
miss y'all!!
a) My Indigo Pressman (Mike - drama boy extrodinaire) told myself and my boss that he needed to take a 6 week hiadus because of serious personal problems. I dislike the kid on a personal level, but respect the work he does, and he knows that. I was a little perturbed that he was going to take 6 weeks off, especially when its been so busy, but for personal reason.. one cannot be mad. I've asked everyone if they knew what the personal reasons were. Everyone. Even gary, whom I have come to trust with everything!. No one had any answers, they all claimed to not know. So be it. Then Christina, My Island Art Sales Person, was supposed to have her 3 month review last week and I never got a chance to ask how it went, mostly out of friendliness, but I hadn't seen much of her. Ok, so be it. Last night was our month going on the town with the work crew thing. We always go to the same bar and have too many drinks and a good time. Randomly I over heard that Mike actually took 6 weeks off to take another job because he hated the Indigo press job so much and was planning to not come back. He told everyone but me. No one thought to tell me. If he doesn't come back in.. it'll be more than 2 months before we can find a reasonable replacement and will not be able to keep up with the already piling jobs. Not only was it unfair to do this to me, it was unfair to do this to everyone in the company and the fact that everyone lied to me about it completely mistifies me. ON TOP of that, I asked Gary how Christina review went, just curioius like, and he said he didn't know. Another lie. Apparently she gave her notice. Fucking fantastic.
b) jamie (cute boy from vancouver) is 30. Thats only 8 years, but seriously, I want a man with responsibilites, but not 8 years more than me right now. lol. Im so picky. I know.
c) Going out with Tia tonight. Should hopefully be a good time. Seriously craving some crazy drunken dancing! And possibley a little male attention? lol. Not any of the take home type, even just some random conversation would be healthy! Last night, at the bar we go to.. i just normally wear what i wore to work, being a cute little coral tshirt, jeans and flipflops.. lol.. and this uniquely good looking boy who might've been a bouncer walked by us probably 14 times and on the 14th time just before I left, he walked from one side of the bar to the other starring at my boobs. I watched him the entire way and he didn't notice cause he was looking at my tits. I thought it was hilarious! I laughed out loud! lol. Apparently most of the weight that i've gained back has moved to my boobs. They are huge. Booooo. On another funny note, one of the girls I work with, Galadrial, she's gay. Not exciting I know, but last night one of the bartenders who normally serves us got absolutely shitfaced and randomly started like making out with her but then confessed that she had a boyfriend that she was moving in with next week.. but really it was hilarious. galadrial is such a bump on the log when it comes ot meeting women its so funny when one actually hits on her.
um... yup thats about it for now. I'm going into town in a few to get some groceries and am considering picking up a fish while downtown. Or a snail. lol. Just something I can talk to when i get home eh? lol. Not in a desperate way.. more in a funny.. married to my pets kinda way.. I'm thinking it will be a good way to destress. lol. sigh.
And thats that!
OH. MAIL!. There should be things about to arrive in Chesterville and in Toronot and in Bracebridge any moment now. Meghan.. your may in fact be broken but I hope not. Amy.. yours is funny. Beasey.. you cannot open yours to your birthday. Tada! And I got your "future postcard" today amy.. love it. my bulletin board is just full of letters from you guys.. its nice to look at!
OH. and the other day I saw chickens randomly on the side of the high just walking along in a row and I laughed really hard. I don't know what that says about the stress level of my job but.. lol.. if chickens can crack me up.. maybe i need to destress a little? lol.
miss y'all!!
Monday, April 09, 2007
a good weekend.. and monday for that matter.
I suppose this weekend was good.. even if I acted like a brat to the crazies. If they are going to treat me like a child.. i can throw a damn good temper tantrum. I know, I know, there is nothing mature about revenge/acting like a 12 year old. But still.. I feel better giving them the silent treatment.
Went out for dinner and drinks with Jennifer on saturday night. She's a pretty cool cat. She's been damn near EVERYwhere. To think, if a girl thats been to every european country can't hack it in victoria.. then I'm not such a huge wimp after all. In anycase.. she's pretty swet.
And then the supremely fun news.. perhaps amy's coming to vancouver after all? I know, I won't get my hopes up. But it would be really neat for me... and for her of course if she came out. Besides.. Stacey is coming to calgary.. so mine as well be inbetween the two of us as per usual right? lol. still.. i'll be happy with whatever she chooses.. after all.. its not like i'm never coming home!
On a side note, Jamie from Vancouver (cute interesting boy) added me on facebook this morning. I now remember more about him. He's kinda cute, I guess and he works for westjet. So there. lol. perhaps I'll venture over to vancouver this weekend? hmmmm?
hurrray! i miss amy! and meghan! and heidi! sigh. ok. i miss everyone. But its getting better out here. for sure.
xxoo
Went out for dinner and drinks with Jennifer on saturday night. She's a pretty cool cat. She's been damn near EVERYwhere. To think, if a girl thats been to every european country can't hack it in victoria.. then I'm not such a huge wimp after all. In anycase.. she's pretty swet.
And then the supremely fun news.. perhaps amy's coming to vancouver after all? I know, I won't get my hopes up. But it would be really neat for me... and for her of course if she came out. Besides.. Stacey is coming to calgary.. so mine as well be inbetween the two of us as per usual right? lol. still.. i'll be happy with whatever she chooses.. after all.. its not like i'm never coming home!
On a side note, Jamie from Vancouver (cute interesting boy) added me on facebook this morning. I now remember more about him. He's kinda cute, I guess and he works for westjet. So there. lol. perhaps I'll venture over to vancouver this weekend? hmmmm?
hurrray! i miss amy! and meghan! and heidi! sigh. ok. i miss everyone. But its getting better out here. for sure.
xxoo
Friday, April 06, 2007
And then the world didn't suck so much?
I haven't exactly been unhappy over the last few weeks. But I haven't been feeling quite like myself. I don't know what it is, or who it is, or what the solution was, but I feel better now.
Wednesday: I went and got my eyebrows waxed (as per usual) by jennifer. I love the girl. And turns out she loves me too. We're both away from homes/friends/family and are both finding it really hard to meet quality people. So we are going to be each others people and make it a group effort to meet people. lol. So we are going for beer. I also baught a lottery ticket. Just cause right?
Thursday: I check my lottery ticket. I WON. $10. But still. I laughed out loud. Really loud actually. I was so happy! The first time I won! AND then tia called. She's not angry. I'm kinda glad. Its been strange not having strange things happen all the time. So we're going eastering tomorrow.
Eastering involves taking the double decker bus (HURRA) into Victoria and then off to the PETTING ZOO! Is it sad that Im kinda excited? lol. My march says that I should buy another lottery ticket and then sneak up on a large group of people and jump in the air like lottery winners do and have tia take a picture. It would be ridiculously funny. I may even take it as a challenge, see how many times we can do it! lol.
Other good things? I'm going to get a kitten. You heard me. But not a fucked up one like doodle. That cat was fucked. No joke. So.. the idea is I'm going to buy one from a pet store. I know there are lots of kittens at shelters.. but i don't want another fucked up one. lol. And pet store kittens need homes too eh?
Ok team. Until another day!
Wednesday: I went and got my eyebrows waxed (as per usual) by jennifer. I love the girl. And turns out she loves me too. We're both away from homes/friends/family and are both finding it really hard to meet quality people. So we are going to be each others people and make it a group effort to meet people. lol. So we are going for beer. I also baught a lottery ticket. Just cause right?
Thursday: I check my lottery ticket. I WON. $10. But still. I laughed out loud. Really loud actually. I was so happy! The first time I won! AND then tia called. She's not angry. I'm kinda glad. Its been strange not having strange things happen all the time. So we're going eastering tomorrow.
Eastering involves taking the double decker bus (HURRA) into Victoria and then off to the PETTING ZOO! Is it sad that Im kinda excited? lol. My march says that I should buy another lottery ticket and then sneak up on a large group of people and jump in the air like lottery winners do and have tia take a picture. It would be ridiculously funny. I may even take it as a challenge, see how many times we can do it! lol.
Other good things? I'm going to get a kitten. You heard me. But not a fucked up one like doodle. That cat was fucked. No joke. So.. the idea is I'm going to buy one from a pet store. I know there are lots of kittens at shelters.. but i don't want another fucked up one. lol. And pet store kittens need homes too eh?
Ok team. Until another day!
Wednesday, April 04, 2007
"We take a life strategies approach" said the Investors Group Brochure I've been working on all day...
Hurray!
So im not coming home any time soon. I got a lovely new raise and even lovier offer of a new computer/salary benefits and some perks I wanted real bad regarding the make up of the job. (get to remaster the art of fixing a huge big filing mess in the digital aspect. hurra!)
back to saving again for a lovely lovely apartment. im not setting a date this time again tho.. when i find it I find it. that will be that!.
siiiiigh :)
So im not coming home any time soon. I got a lovely new raise and even lovier offer of a new computer/salary benefits and some perks I wanted real bad regarding the make up of the job. (get to remaster the art of fixing a huge big filing mess in the digital aspect. hurra!)
back to saving again for a lovely lovely apartment. im not setting a date this time again tho.. when i find it I find it. that will be that!.
siiiiigh :)
Tuesday, April 03, 2007
Just shoutin the shit. In english.. not a sexy language at all.
Ok. So. (said in midly amusing think frenh/enlish accent like on "blowing up the world" flash show on internet)
I was perusing my little blog here, and found myself hilariously stupid. I like it. So I think, self I think, there must be other stupidly funny people out there that write about dumb things like golfing and boys and life in general. So i hit the "random blog" bottom at the top of the screen. 7 times. TO no avail. All i found was Foreign people. Not one speaking english not to mention whitty/funny/amusing/or intelligent. On the eighth click I managed to find a english speaking music writer. But that doesn't interest me. i'd rather just listen to the stuff.
On a side note, i baught a cd at HMV (i know. who buys cds these days? apparently me, I think I am becoming more attached my possessions/surroundings, I like owning things) anyways, the cd was called "Pink Martinis". I looked on the back? And there was song called "in the garden of samson and beasley". how could i not buy it. And i did. And it has turned into a wonderful work/car ride cd. Its french jazz. lol. im so ridicous i make myself laugh. a lot. I recommend it to anyone who just loves random happy jazz with a flare for the foreign even if you don't understand it, and what i mean is, especially if you don't understand it. i can' imagine listening to french jazz would be as compelling if you knew how to speak french. the joy would be lost.
Tonight, I shall go to the range, read my book, then look up some interesting (yet cheap) things I single gal in a big city can do. Amy suggested the museum, which I am sure would be very interesing cause i do like old shit... shit a term that should be used in a funny flirty way in that sentance... however.. i'm thinking like go see a band... join a knitting class? i'll probably go golfing on sunday..hopefully at a course that doesn't stink like i shit on the grass then stepped in it... and hopefully with some joyeous old men that perhaps inthe near future would introduce me to their fabulously artsy fartsy sons. Getting a little ahead of myself I know.
In other high anticipated news.. I am forsure coming home for my birthday. FOR SURE. I working ridonkulous hours as we speak so that I may take this time off paid.. but we shall see about the paid part. Anyhoo. Plan of attack is.. hopefully.. hang out with the olds a little bit, help bease move into her new apartment in london, do the birthday bit in either toronto or ottawa (im giving fair notice..so i expect everyone of you to be there), go to ottawa, visit toronto and then home? eeee. that'll be a busy two weeks for sure. rediculous. but i can't help that i must see everyone! Ok i know I said forsure at the beginning of the paragraph, but alas, i've just thought, if I am coming home at the end of august.. then I probably won't come home for my birthday.lol. we will see i guess.
ok. i have a les cramp in my wrist. more work to be done i suppose.
xxoo waffey
I was perusing my little blog here, and found myself hilariously stupid. I like it. So I think, self I think, there must be other stupidly funny people out there that write about dumb things like golfing and boys and life in general. So i hit the "random blog" bottom at the top of the screen. 7 times. TO no avail. All i found was Foreign people. Not one speaking english not to mention whitty/funny/amusing/or intelligent. On the eighth click I managed to find a english speaking music writer. But that doesn't interest me. i'd rather just listen to the stuff.
On a side note, i baught a cd at HMV (i know. who buys cds these days? apparently me, I think I am becoming more attached my possessions/surroundings, I like owning things) anyways, the cd was called "Pink Martinis". I looked on the back? And there was song called "in the garden of samson and beasley". how could i not buy it. And i did. And it has turned into a wonderful work/car ride cd. Its french jazz. lol. im so ridicous i make myself laugh. a lot. I recommend it to anyone who just loves random happy jazz with a flare for the foreign even if you don't understand it, and what i mean is, especially if you don't understand it. i can' imagine listening to french jazz would be as compelling if you knew how to speak french. the joy would be lost.
Tonight, I shall go to the range, read my book, then look up some interesting (yet cheap) things I single gal in a big city can do. Amy suggested the museum, which I am sure would be very interesing cause i do like old shit... shit a term that should be used in a funny flirty way in that sentance... however.. i'm thinking like go see a band... join a knitting class? i'll probably go golfing on sunday..hopefully at a course that doesn't stink like i shit on the grass then stepped in it... and hopefully with some joyeous old men that perhaps inthe near future would introduce me to their fabulously artsy fartsy sons. Getting a little ahead of myself I know.
In other high anticipated news.. I am forsure coming home for my birthday. FOR SURE. I working ridonkulous hours as we speak so that I may take this time off paid.. but we shall see about the paid part. Anyhoo. Plan of attack is.. hopefully.. hang out with the olds a little bit, help bease move into her new apartment in london, do the birthday bit in either toronto or ottawa (im giving fair notice..so i expect everyone of you to be there), go to ottawa, visit toronto and then home? eeee. that'll be a busy two weeks for sure. rediculous. but i can't help that i must see everyone! Ok i know I said forsure at the beginning of the paragraph, but alas, i've just thought, if I am coming home at the end of august.. then I probably won't come home for my birthday.lol. we will see i guess.
ok. i have a les cramp in my wrist. more work to be done i suppose.
xxoo waffey
Monday, April 02, 2007
What the hell am I doing with my life! etc.
Oh my ladies.
You've all been to this point before and I dismissed it as anxiety and just something some people go through (not this someone tho). I apologize now, as I find myself in that situation.
I haven't got the foggiest as to why I moved out here. Plain and simple. Not one good reason. And now, the only good reason I have for staying, is my job. Which by the way is a very compelling reason.
So now, as you all have, I'm researching my options. Go back to school? Change careers? Go overseas? Move home? Move to Ontario? Move to Ottawa? But dear god, what would i do in all of these places? I know I have to make money.
Lets think this through.
If i stay here (at the crazies) until January i can a) save up some cash. b) be able to stay at my job. c) um.. save up some cash.
If i move home.. i have no cash. no job. no home. ok.
so looks like I'll be milling about here til january. sigh.
You've all been to this point before and I dismissed it as anxiety and just something some people go through (not this someone tho). I apologize now, as I find myself in that situation.
I haven't got the foggiest as to why I moved out here. Plain and simple. Not one good reason. And now, the only good reason I have for staying, is my job. Which by the way is a very compelling reason.
So now, as you all have, I'm researching my options. Go back to school? Change careers? Go overseas? Move home? Move to Ontario? Move to Ottawa? But dear god, what would i do in all of these places? I know I have to make money.
Lets think this through.
If i stay here (at the crazies) until January i can a) save up some cash. b) be able to stay at my job. c) um.. save up some cash.
If i move home.. i have no cash. no job. no home. ok.
so looks like I'll be milling about here til january. sigh.
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