Not much time - but some time is better then no time. Quick story:
A professor stand infront of his class with a large pickle jar in from of him. He says "Class this is an empty jar." Class nods. Professor then dumps a load of golf balls in the jar. "Class, this is a full jar". Class nods. Professors dumps in a bunch of pebbles. "Class this is a full jar." Class nods again.. Professor dumps in sand. "Class this is a full jar" Class nods again. Professor dumps in two cups of coffee. "Class, this is a full jar" class nods again. "Do know what this pickle jar means? Let me explain:
The golf balls represent the big things in life: Family, Friends, Love, Compassion
The pebbles represent the semi big things in life: Work, Entertainment, Bills, Exercise
The sand represents the small things in life: gossip, drama, etc
If you mix your priorities up there won't be enough room for everything. For your life to be truely full you much pay attention to the big things in life and let the smaller things sink in around them."
Student says "Whats the coffee represent?"
Professor says "There is always room for a cup of coffee with a friend"
An interesting thought eh?
i'll end with that for now. Perhaps dwell on it later.
I feel exhausted with talking about myself for the time being.
xxoo
glad to be back.
Sunday, March 02, 2008
Saturday, October 20, 2007
Front Store Manager - Holly, age 23
Holy Fuck.
So about three weeks ago I was completely stressed out by Garth and CIP and decided to look for for another job. I probably applied for about a half a dozen jobs. One including on a WILD shot a Front Store Manager Position at the Shoppers Dug Mart here in Downtown Victoria.
Apparently my resume and cover letter were impressive (as it should have been... cause I am impressive.. lol) cause I got an email on Friday afternoon asking when I was available for an interview! AHHHHHHH.
So me. A shoppers drug mart front store manager! Friggin Nuts! I made it perfectly clear in my resume and cover letter that I am only 23 but am SO eager to learn and grow and become a good leader! AHHHHHH. I am too excited. Even to be considered for the position is friggin insane. Its a lot of work running a Shoppers Drug Mart but by shit, I am so excited. It would be full time hours, with overtime and benefits, but I wouldn't be able to work at Fairways anymore.. which is rather sad since I really like it.. but still.
HOLY SHIT!
I'll let you know how it goes!
xxoo
So about three weeks ago I was completely stressed out by Garth and CIP and decided to look for for another job. I probably applied for about a half a dozen jobs. One including on a WILD shot a Front Store Manager Position at the Shoppers Dug Mart here in Downtown Victoria.
Apparently my resume and cover letter were impressive (as it should have been... cause I am impressive.. lol) cause I got an email on Friday afternoon asking when I was available for an interview! AHHHHHHH.
So me. A shoppers drug mart front store manager! Friggin Nuts! I made it perfectly clear in my resume and cover letter that I am only 23 but am SO eager to learn and grow and become a good leader! AHHHHHH. I am too excited. Even to be considered for the position is friggin insane. Its a lot of work running a Shoppers Drug Mart but by shit, I am so excited. It would be full time hours, with overtime and benefits, but I wouldn't be able to work at Fairways anymore.. which is rather sad since I really like it.. but still.
HOLY SHIT!
I'll let you know how it goes!
xxoo
Wednesday, October 17, 2007
Everyones married. or getting there. am i?
First off I'd like to say I know too many people who have either a) gotten married in the last year or b) just got engaged this year. And I'll admit I'm wearing my jealous worried face. And to be honest.. maybe this is just my ego bursting.. but I always thought I'd be married before them. exhibit a. Miranda and Steve. Whoa. Who even knew she liked boys? I sure as hell didn't. And steve? I always thought he'd end up in the army forever firing guns at anything that moved. Hell. That still might happen.
Exhibit b. Jenna and Bill. What the fuck. I really don't know where to go from there.
And here we are. Me. I have been thinking about the rest of my love life far too much the last few days. Could I spend the rest of my life with marcos? His worst quality? The only bad thing that I can think about him is? He snores. And that my friend can be fixed. Could I marry him? And have his babies? And wake up to him every day? And wash his undies? And listen to him fart? Well we're past the farting stage and sleeping over is a regular affair. Wash his undies? It doesn't seem so terrible. Have his babies? He would be the most amazing father. He is so patient, loving, affectionate, morally sound, he loves kids, I can just see him spending every second with his kids. The res of my life eh? At this particular moment I'd say yes if he asked me. I guess there is just two points that popped into my mind. a) if jason showed up in canada tomorrow and asked me to marry him what would I say? Is marcos just the next best thing? b) we've only been dating for a little over a month. bahaha. Enough of the rest of my life already!
China 2.0: I love working at Quadra Fairways. I've made some awesome friends. Monday's I work in the service desk with Betty and we do nothing but laugh. No joke. She's a 40 something chinese woman all tiny and bucked tooth but by shit she is the funniest woman in the world. She worked with Marcos at #2 ages ago so I was asking her to tell me some gossip about him and this is what she says in her ridiculous chinese accident "He likes dirty pussy!" but she didn't say it loud... just loud enough for me to hear and when I gasped and asker her to repeat herself she was like "He likes young girls". I laughed sooo hard the further til called the desk to tell me not to laugh so loud. lol.
On Tuesday nights I work with Olivia in the service desk. Also.. nothing but laughter. Shes 24 and works full time at Fairways and lives the next street over from the store. But I drive her the half a block home. Last night she was telling me about her Saturday night "So I might've hugged marcos.... for 20 minutes. And then I hit on one of our customers who just happens to be standing at til 5 right now. AND THEN i tried to steal an ice cream bar for 7/11". I laughed soo hard. Ridonkulous!
Thursdays i work with Denise. Shes lovely we don't laugh as much.. but by god I try. lol
CIP - THe company that stole my hair.
Why is it that when you loose your hair comes off your head instead of the unwanted areas that have hair on them? like the backs of my knees where is really hard to shave? Or the stray chin hairs i'm developing? In anycase over the last few weeks my hair has been falling out because of the stress of my job. I'm trying to not let it take over my life, but its subconcious right? Like Am I gonna have a job in 6 months? I dunno. I wish I didn't have to think about it.. but I can't help it. My brain just goes and goes and goes. The only thing keeping me sane and being able to talk to marcos. he is just so understanding and helpful. So.. I just keep going in and doing my job. Yeah know.. I should probably doing more. I know everyone of you are going to say "you can only do what you can do" but really I think I could do more. Make a better effort. I'll try. Next week. lol.
My bottom.
So farch is coming out November 18 - December 1 for when I have my surgery. I sure am glad he's coming. It'll be nice to spend some quality time with him. That and I think it will be so nice to have him meet marcos. I think they both want to meet each other. My surgery is on the Monday and marcos has mondays and tuesdays off so he'll come to the hospital with me and dad I think.. which will be nice. THis sure does sound all very important and official and like we're getting married.
Thats all I can say right now. I'm getting a cramp and I must clean and shower before mr. popular gets here.
xxoo
Exhibit b. Jenna and Bill. What the fuck. I really don't know where to go from there.
And here we are. Me. I have been thinking about the rest of my love life far too much the last few days. Could I spend the rest of my life with marcos? His worst quality? The only bad thing that I can think about him is? He snores. And that my friend can be fixed. Could I marry him? And have his babies? And wake up to him every day? And wash his undies? And listen to him fart? Well we're past the farting stage and sleeping over is a regular affair. Wash his undies? It doesn't seem so terrible. Have his babies? He would be the most amazing father. He is so patient, loving, affectionate, morally sound, he loves kids, I can just see him spending every second with his kids. The res of my life eh? At this particular moment I'd say yes if he asked me. I guess there is just two points that popped into my mind. a) if jason showed up in canada tomorrow and asked me to marry him what would I say? Is marcos just the next best thing? b) we've only been dating for a little over a month. bahaha. Enough of the rest of my life already!
China 2.0: I love working at Quadra Fairways. I've made some awesome friends. Monday's I work in the service desk with Betty and we do nothing but laugh. No joke. She's a 40 something chinese woman all tiny and bucked tooth but by shit she is the funniest woman in the world. She worked with Marcos at #2 ages ago so I was asking her to tell me some gossip about him and this is what she says in her ridiculous chinese accident "He likes dirty pussy!" but she didn't say it loud... just loud enough for me to hear and when I gasped and asker her to repeat herself she was like "He likes young girls". I laughed sooo hard the further til called the desk to tell me not to laugh so loud. lol.
On Tuesday nights I work with Olivia in the service desk. Also.. nothing but laughter. Shes 24 and works full time at Fairways and lives the next street over from the store. But I drive her the half a block home. Last night she was telling me about her Saturday night "So I might've hugged marcos.... for 20 minutes. And then I hit on one of our customers who just happens to be standing at til 5 right now. AND THEN i tried to steal an ice cream bar for 7/11". I laughed soo hard. Ridonkulous!
Thursdays i work with Denise. Shes lovely we don't laugh as much.. but by god I try. lol
CIP - THe company that stole my hair.
Why is it that when you loose your hair comes off your head instead of the unwanted areas that have hair on them? like the backs of my knees where is really hard to shave? Or the stray chin hairs i'm developing? In anycase over the last few weeks my hair has been falling out because of the stress of my job. I'm trying to not let it take over my life, but its subconcious right? Like Am I gonna have a job in 6 months? I dunno. I wish I didn't have to think about it.. but I can't help it. My brain just goes and goes and goes. The only thing keeping me sane and being able to talk to marcos. he is just so understanding and helpful. So.. I just keep going in and doing my job. Yeah know.. I should probably doing more. I know everyone of you are going to say "you can only do what you can do" but really I think I could do more. Make a better effort. I'll try. Next week. lol.
My bottom.
So farch is coming out November 18 - December 1 for when I have my surgery. I sure am glad he's coming. It'll be nice to spend some quality time with him. That and I think it will be so nice to have him meet marcos. I think they both want to meet each other. My surgery is on the Monday and marcos has mondays and tuesdays off so he'll come to the hospital with me and dad I think.. which will be nice. THis sure does sound all very important and official and like we're getting married.
Thats all I can say right now. I'm getting a cramp and I must clean and shower before mr. popular gets here.
xxoo
Monday, September 17, 2007
My schedule vs. Your Schedule
Well today is monday. Which is the scheme of things means I start at the New Fairways tonight. In general this is not a bad thing. What is a bad thing is that Marcos still thinks its ok to see me after work. Monday also means he starts work today again too. And works til 10pm as well BUT doesn't start until 1. But he still thinks that I will be concious after 10pm tonight EVEN though I started at 7am... and will have start again tomorrow at 7am. I can see this relationship becoming physically draining very fast.
I love spending time with him and I love seeing him and I love talking to him.. but I have done all the above every day since he got back.. and to be honest.. I was hoping this was just a phase. Like after he returned to work we would have date nights and see each other a couple times a week? It doesn't look like it. So he's coming over tonight after work.. and then probably Tuesday after work (cause he doesn't work wednesday mornings... and then probably wednesday after he's done cause he works til 10 and me only til 3:30... it is going to be exhausting. I do need my sleep you know.
Oh well. I suppose we will see how this works?
I love spending time with him and I love seeing him and I love talking to him.. but I have done all the above every day since he got back.. and to be honest.. I was hoping this was just a phase. Like after he returned to work we would have date nights and see each other a couple times a week? It doesn't look like it. So he's coming over tonight after work.. and then probably Tuesday after work (cause he doesn't work wednesday mornings... and then probably wednesday after he's done cause he works til 10 and me only til 3:30... it is going to be exhausting. I do need my sleep you know.
Oh well. I suppose we will see how this works?
Saturday, September 15, 2007
The best reaction to no.
I definately had a great night.
Everyone from work went out for a few drinks.. or 8 tequila sunrises.. and some laughs. Turns out most of the people that I work with are either gay or bi. Who knew? Not me. Very strange events thats for sure.
The best part was aftewards tho. Marcos showed up about 11pm at my house and climbed into bed with me and we talked and kissed and cuddled and I really had no reservations about saying anything to him. Like.. after he left on Thursday night i went to bed.. but woke up at like 2 unbelievable turned on. I didn't know what to do with myself. lol. I told him that and he said the same thing happened to him.. cept it happened before he left my apartment. lol. The most important part of the night however, was when I said "I have been thinking about having sex with you all day and I've come up with a decision. I've decided that we should just yet". And he said he agreed and that he's glad that I made the decision and could say it out loud. We then proceeded to snuggle all night. AND SLEEP! I slept! And he slept! The only other boys house I've ever slept at when staying over was jason. ha.
So anyways. He stayed over and we then snuggled all morning on the couch and now I am exhausted and need to do grocery shopping and laundry and am NOT going out tonight. I'm playing golf with mike tomorrow morning and then seeing marcos tomorrow night.
I am turned into that girl. That girl who sees her boyfriend every day. Who knew that was me?
Public Announcement: I'm embarrassed that I judged people in relationships and how they weren't their own people anymore because of their boyfriends. I may in fact be a hypocrite.. except I am still my own person.
Everyone from work went out for a few drinks.. or 8 tequila sunrises.. and some laughs. Turns out most of the people that I work with are either gay or bi. Who knew? Not me. Very strange events thats for sure.
The best part was aftewards tho. Marcos showed up about 11pm at my house and climbed into bed with me and we talked and kissed and cuddled and I really had no reservations about saying anything to him. Like.. after he left on Thursday night i went to bed.. but woke up at like 2 unbelievable turned on. I didn't know what to do with myself. lol. I told him that and he said the same thing happened to him.. cept it happened before he left my apartment. lol. The most important part of the night however, was when I said "I have been thinking about having sex with you all day and I've come up with a decision. I've decided that we should just yet". And he said he agreed and that he's glad that I made the decision and could say it out loud. We then proceeded to snuggle all night. AND SLEEP! I slept! And he slept! The only other boys house I've ever slept at when staying over was jason. ha.
So anyways. He stayed over and we then snuggled all morning on the couch and now I am exhausted and need to do grocery shopping and laundry and am NOT going out tonight. I'm playing golf with mike tomorrow morning and then seeing marcos tomorrow night.
I am turned into that girl. That girl who sees her boyfriend every day. Who knew that was me?
Public Announcement: I'm embarrassed that I judged people in relationships and how they weren't their own people anymore because of their boyfriends. I may in fact be a hypocrite.. except I am still my own person.
Wednesday, September 12, 2007
Scary Happy - When your so happy you're scared.
Oh lovelies.
Yesterday was Tuesday. The Tuesday. The marking of a new chapter. Of a new start. Of a new "day". What a funny thing. On a Tuesday.
In anycase. Yesterday was my last day as a Fairways Sidney Cashier. And Marcos came home. He called me literally 20 minutes after he got home. So I said I would call him when I got home cause he wanted to do something after I was done work (can you imagine.. me up past 10pm? on a work night?) So I did. He came over and it was just like we had been together for ever. He kissed me when I opened the door and he just wanted to have a hand on me at all times.. in the kitchen in the hallway on the couch. It was adorable. And he brought me stuff from the phillipines! Some candy and coconut things and rum and a naked man. Yes thats right. I naked man. lol. I shall take picture and post it. Its hilarious. He said he bought me a necklace and then lost it so thats what I got instead. lol. It was just fantastic.
On a bummer note.. he does work at my new fairways. Funny enough... Elenor didn't schedule me for the days he works. lol. Which is better because I definately don't want to be that girl. I made a huge point about it last night that I had no idea he worked there and that he was not the reason I was going there... oh well.. it still looks like that to everyone else I'm sure. crapola.
In any case.. he's on his way over right now.. and we're going to get some eats.. I really like him. Scary happy like him.. and I think he feels the same. Not think. Know. I hope this isn't too good to be true. Please slap me when i start making up reason why I shouldn't date him. THere aren't any.
xxoo
Yesterday was Tuesday. The Tuesday. The marking of a new chapter. Of a new start. Of a new "day". What a funny thing. On a Tuesday.
In anycase. Yesterday was my last day as a Fairways Sidney Cashier. And Marcos came home. He called me literally 20 minutes after he got home. So I said I would call him when I got home cause he wanted to do something after I was done work (can you imagine.. me up past 10pm? on a work night?) So I did. He came over and it was just like we had been together for ever. He kissed me when I opened the door and he just wanted to have a hand on me at all times.. in the kitchen in the hallway on the couch. It was adorable. And he brought me stuff from the phillipines! Some candy and coconut things and rum and a naked man. Yes thats right. I naked man. lol. I shall take picture and post it. Its hilarious. He said he bought me a necklace and then lost it so thats what I got instead. lol. It was just fantastic.
On a bummer note.. he does work at my new fairways. Funny enough... Elenor didn't schedule me for the days he works. lol. Which is better because I definately don't want to be that girl. I made a huge point about it last night that I had no idea he worked there and that he was not the reason I was going there... oh well.. it still looks like that to everyone else I'm sure. crapola.
In any case.. he's on his way over right now.. and we're going to get some eats.. I really like him. Scary happy like him.. and I think he feels the same. Not think. Know. I hope this isn't too good to be true. Please slap me when i start making up reason why I shouldn't date him. THere aren't any.
xxoo
Sunday, September 09, 2007
"Just chillllll Winstonnnn"
I woke up this morning and realized I'm pretty good. I mean.. I didn't wake up feeling dressed out... or antsy.... and worried... or impatient. I mean... I'm good. So today was a pretty chill day. Cleaning and sewing mostly. Later I'm going to do some laundry and some reading and some grocery shopping.. but all of that is also pretty chill.
A story.
Last night we went to Melissa's house for a BBQ for Guathio's son who just returned from Afghanastan. I'd never met him.. but I love guathio so I was there for the celebration (and the food cause i love her cooking). I met Marvin. Guathio's son. Here's the thing. He is clearly malasyan.... which is fine.... but he speaks english... but in an awkward non accent way. In anyways.. thats not the point. The point is.. I think he was flirting with me. And I may have flirted with him. And they I felt guilty.
Its just no fail when you've decided not to fuck things up (and by fuck things up i mean every time i decide i like some one some one "better" comes along and i then they aren't really better and then i try and get back with the original guy he isn't interested) there always comes guys that are just ready and willing. No fail. And me being me.. can't resist the attention... but I think i've been fairly good lately.. i mean.. i've consciously thought "no.. he'll last 10 minutes" or "no.. he's cute but" yeah.
anyways. i'm chill now. what will be will be. in my lovely apartment.
xxoo
A story.
Last night we went to Melissa's house for a BBQ for Guathio's son who just returned from Afghanastan. I'd never met him.. but I love guathio so I was there for the celebration (and the food cause i love her cooking). I met Marvin. Guathio's son. Here's the thing. He is clearly malasyan.... which is fine.... but he speaks english... but in an awkward non accent way. In anyways.. thats not the point. The point is.. I think he was flirting with me. And I may have flirted with him. And they I felt guilty.
Its just no fail when you've decided not to fuck things up (and by fuck things up i mean every time i decide i like some one some one "better" comes along and i then they aren't really better and then i try and get back with the original guy he isn't interested) there always comes guys that are just ready and willing. No fail. And me being me.. can't resist the attention... but I think i've been fairly good lately.. i mean.. i've consciously thought "no.. he'll last 10 minutes" or "no.. he's cute but" yeah.
anyways. i'm chill now. what will be will be. in my lovely apartment.
xxoo
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