I'd like to make an amendment.

Well.. apparently I was a little drunk this morning when I wrote that first blog too. lol. I had to reread it to remember what i wrote. lol. In anycase.. an amendment.

Melissa and I are still friends. Her ex aaron is not as gross as previously suspected. Krystal still likes me and asked me to go out for drinks sometime.

I am still a hurting unit.

BUT Lindsay is coming over to sidney next saturday so it'll be sweet to see her. AND she officially invited me to her birthday weekend in july – which incidentally is the weekend before I go home.. in anycase... she said that we were gonna go out and have a riot but that there is a special after party secret surprise for me afterwards. lol. and that only her, andy (her boyfriend) and james (andy's cousin) know about it. I did ask if the hot boy from a few weekends ago was going to be there and she said probably not. but that James would be there. Which isn't that good of news for me.. considering i thought the other guy was super hot. lol.

anyhoo... must go. walking to the gym. sigh.

Holy Fucking God.

I now know why I don't have too many friends around here. It may be because I have foot and mouth disease. Thats right folks. As soon as I get a little beer into me (and by a little i mean 3 bottles and a bottle of wine) I get all carried away and start speakin without thinkin. Me? Say random nasty things? I know... crazy. lol.

The whole story:

I made plans to go out with Melissa after work last night. I used to work at shoppers with her and now work in China with her. Anyway.. I don't know how it happened but it turned out that she and 3 of her friends came here. So it was Melissa, me, krystal, allen and matt.

We drank out faces off and had a good time until one of melissa's friends called and was like "we're having a party come over" which happened to be a block away. So we go. Beer and Wine in toe.

We get to this "party" and it turns out to be THE most REDNECK affair of me life. Like 4 pickup trucks on the lawn they have some drums and a guitar set up at a bonfire and there are about 20 girls under the age 0f 17. The house is disgusting, the toliet doesn't flush, the sink is filled with puke and there are more boys wearing nascar hats than I could shake a stick at. Well, matt and I decided right away that we don't want to be there.. but don't leave because of melissa and co. It started off creepy and then I got drunker and then I got talkin to people and at some point someone told me that Kristal and Allen were together and then at some point I got offended about something.. and then I went to leave and Allen said something to me and then I guess I told him that I was NOT going to sleep with matt cause I'm not that kinda girl and then everything got carried away and I offended everyone.. ah fuck I don't know. So apparently I walked home alone... locked all the doors and managed to crawl into bed.

So either way... I now have krystals wallet and booze and melissa's sunglasses here and I may have said I'd bring melissa coffee this morning but quite frankly I'm a little unsure as to if we're still friends. lol. ooooops.

i guess we'll find out . All i know is that... i wouldn't be sad if we never went out again.. me and melissa that is... i don't think i can handle myself around her friends.. seeing as they are all hicks and gross. except matt. i'm a little sorry i offended him. but in any case..

I must drink so juice and tylenol and go back to bed. yaaaaarg.

I did a very bad thing last night.

Oh you'd shall all be mad at me. I'll consent to it. In fact if you aren't at least disappointed I'll be disappointed.

I might've been snopping around on Facebook late last night and came across Milly's wall.

( for those of you who do not know milly; a little back ground )
We met in February of 2003. We had a 3 month relationship. It was fun. He then broke up with me for reasons i can't remember. i then hooked up with my neighbour which incidentally was his bestfriend although i didn't know. Continued sleeping with shane, just to piss milly off until the summer. then randomly hooked up with milly again on my birthday in a ditch. and a car. and a park. lol. We then continued our tremoltuous relationship consisting of fighting and fucking. New Years Eve 2005. We hooked up which ended in my breaking all of the cds in his room I could find in a drunken rage in front of his friends wearing only a tshirt and undies. Then randomly saw him a year and bit later at a charity function where everyone including him thought we were going to hook up again. but i said no. anyways.. have talked to him few times since being out here but it always revolves around if we're going to get together soon or so on and so forth.

And then last night I caved. I was funkin around on the internet and came across his facebook and some pictures of this girl getting cozy with him. It drove me insanely jealous. he just moved to Toronto.. so I may have mentioned I'd be in toronto for a few days and he says we should meet up for old times sake.. shit. So let the disappointment begin.

Anyhooo... other then that... i've been workin all weekend. I did get paid on saturday. but apparently China wanted to pay me chinese wages. I worked 20 hours and they only paid me for 9.5. Last time I checked if one works either 4 hours shifts of 6 hour shifts.. there is NO WAY you can be paid for 9.5. idiots.

Other than that... Just chillin today. I've decided that Sundays are NO car days. So i'm walking to the gym in a bit.. then walking to work for 5. Other than that. Laundry.. some cleaning. And enjoying the sun today!

xxoo

i certainly DO NOT have A TAIL! I have two. sob.

My oh my have some ferocious things happened in the last week.

Tuesday I went to see Feist with Tia. I know I know, but I had bought the ticket like two months ago so felt that I must go, it just so happened that she bought the ticket to the chair right next to me. I any case, it was weird. You know when you go to a concert and you feel like the lead singer is crooning to you? Or talking specifically to you? Well I didnt feel that at all with Feist. I felt like she was faking it. Like she didn't want to be there and that she was just doing her job. Albeit the music was good and enjoyable but everything in between seemed... like hard work. I was a little disappointed. A Tia tail? Well.. she spent much of the beginning of the evening talking shit about boys she'd met on the way to the theatre (which were all completely made up because she's actually terrified to speak to boys) and then when I finally got a moment I tried to tell her about my receipt story and she just starred at me with a blank stare. Like.. not even faking interest. I don't think she has any grounds to think that my stories are made up considering I am ALWAYs the one who introduces her to boys or does the random boy talking in public. She didn't even do a fake smile. I was like "ok. so either thats your jealous face because your life is actually quite dull and not full of cute boys or you have to clean out your ears because that was one damn exciting story." So yeah.

Wednesday I went to the doctor. When my dad was 19 he grew an abcyst on his tailbone that was huge that he had to have surgry on. His mother had to pack his ass with guaze for weeks and he had to wear pantyhose. He couldn't walk or sit for 5 weeks. Well.. a month or so ago beasey got one of these, but she went to the doctors to and they gave her some antibiotics and it shrunk so it didn't hurt anymore. Well my ass started to hurt around the same time. I shouldn't say hurt.. it was just like a dull throb when i say down or touched it. I thought I was just imagining it. So i ignored it until wednesday. Well the doctor made me bend over a table and he felt around my crack and discover TWO sinus's. They are like little golf tee's. The pointy ends gets burrowed in your tailbone and the large end sticks up above the skin. In time they grow and fill themselves with fluid and become extremely painful like my farches. Well the doctor gave me the same antibiotics they gave my sister to stop the inflamation and hopefully stop the growth of these fuckers but he still suggested I get them removed because they will grow and get infected at some point or another. yeah. awesome eh> so he referred me to a surgeon, whom hasn't called yet, but I'm supposed to get my shot in the next week or so anyways so I have to go in and I'll get them to call again so I can get an appointment. I dont particallarly want to have surgery on my ass.. but if that gets me some time off inthe summer.. thats some serious beach time! lol. plus I'll get sick leave. lol.

Thursday? Well because of my meds I can't have alcohol at all.. and sadly enough it was Dylan's and Jenn's going away dinner that night. So I was the DD. boo. We had dinner and it was teary with some laughs. Very sad. So she leaves on Monday AM, suprememly early and her parents are coming tonight to help her pack. So.. she's back to Calgary. But we've already decided I'm visiting in September.. more to come on that.. and probably when I drive home.. which she informed me I will either have to do in October or April because of the Rockies being horrific to drive through in the winter.

As for September. Amy, if you end up going to Calgary in Sept. I'll just meet you there! I know jenn'll find us some crazy shit to do. But I know stacey will want to be with andrew.. and then end up seeing Josh and those fucks... and Im not really interested in that. So we can hang out and I'll hang out with jenn and it'll be awesome!!

Friday? I worked ALL day. from 7am-9pm. Boo. However, yesterday was pay day so I shall be picking up a check today! I dare say it's a pretty sweet deal to get paid every Friday now. And I actually like working at the grocery store. its not so terrible after all.

anyhoo.. must vamous. got loaaads of laundry and book I must start plus the gym and some tanning to be done.. ALL before 5!

love you guys lots! OH and my march was like "well.. have your surgery there and then fly home for your recovery!" and i was like "are you nuts? i'll be having surgery on my ass and you want me to sit on a plane for four hours afterwards?". hilarious!

xxoo!

how could i have forgotten!

Team:

I talked to a gym boy!! Not only did i talk to him. I told him he was hot. and then i turned red. and he smiled and squeezed me. then i ran away. i may have been redonkulously drunk as i've just remember tonight when i wanted to go to the gym. Mind you, it wasn't THE gym boy, but it was one of them. I had made this ridiculous rule that every time you call out that a guy is hot you have to tell him. I broke the rule frist. so had to do it. im such a joke. luckily i was drunk. lol. so. yeah.

man. that's gonna be awkward tomorrow.

On the upside. I get free bakery stuff when i work nights. Deal. Breakfast tomorra? Can we say cinnamon buns? Hurray!

200 dollars later.

Last night was out of my mind. For everyone involved. Needless to say it was better then my last outing with tia byt 20.

First off, I missed the damn bus to get into town. So jenn drove in from Victoria to pick me up. And then the bus passed us. lol. So. we get to the restuarant, Sauce, where we were meeting Morgan and Erin. Funny funny girls. At this point Erin and Morgan are already a little drunk so I had to catch up. lol. I had two sangrias, and three martini's. lol. and a salad. But I wasn't drunk. Just a little more.. confident? lol. So we're eating when this guy and girl comes in. They are obviously on a first date. They weren't really talking or looking into one anothers eyes, they were just starring around the restuarant. I made the comment tothe girls that he was hot and that they didn't look right together. I then might've made a comment that I should seduce him away from his date... by just spreading my legs in the skirt that i was wearing. I may have said it a little loud. Jenn then said that he was totally checking me out.. and I might've said "he's checkin me out cause he knows I'd put out and she wouldn't." lol. Ok so I was a little drunk. lol. Jenn then erin are watching him and he's totally checking me out and ignoring the girl he was with. So you know what I do?? When we're leaving I wrote my number on my receipt and got up and turned around and looked him in the eyes and he looked me in the eyes. and I handed him my number and he smiled. lol. HILARIOUS!

So we go to Plan B, a bar. I probably had 13 drinks? But wasn't feeling altogether drunk. Did some dancing.. had some laughs.. it was a good time. I'm sorry I don't have more details. to be honest.. there wasn't really anything that stuck out to me.. nothing to special.. just good times. That and i'm a little hungover. lol. I must go find some grease. Perhaps more later.

Oh yeah, I baught a notebook, a leather bound notebook today. I shall start the writing, the old fashion way.

xxoo

Directly off the wagon. Day 2

Team. I suck.

Food consumed today:

1 apple danish freshly baked.
6 potstickers (like little dumplings) made fresh with veggies.
1 box of thia noodles
1 mango lemonade
1 lemonade
2 pieces of pizza
1 pear (i now remember how to spell it)

And that is all before dinner and drinks in victoria. boo!
Exercise done: walked all over Salt Spring Island. possibly dancing later on.
That was all with tia early today on salt spring island. it sure is hippy ville. in an expensive way thats fore sure. I know what i'm bringin back for ya'll in july.

Tonight i'm going out with jenn, her sister and some of her friends downtown. I've made the decision already that i'm not driving into town. i'm taking the bus. so i can get as shittered as i very well please and take a cab home. and then tomorrow there will be hungoverednes and cleaning. boo. i suppose i should also go to the gym or do some exercise of some such.

until then my pets..

xxoo ciao babas

Day One of OGFW. I need better letters.

Day one.

I suck. SO far.

Breakfast: Large Hot Chocolate $2.25

Snack: 5 timbits (i know. and they were the powder sugar ones with filling)

Lunch: 3 Bowls Strawberries (no sugar and they were spaced out in a 4 hour time
frame)

Dinner: 1 Bosc Pare (which i all of a sudden can't spell).
2 Glasses of Organic Apple Juice
2 Small Yogurts with fruit in the bottom (low fat)

The Gym: 20 Minutes Fast walking on the treadmill
20 Minutes on the Eliptical
4 reps of 12 on the Ab machine
4 reps of 12 on the thigh master (obviously not the right name)
4 reps of 10 on hang & lift knees to chin machine (am i good or what?)
1 1.5L bottle of evian. (so posh of me eh?)

How do i feel? Not hungrey. But still starring at the spare tractor tire around my waist.

Perhaps I'll try the swimming.. but i'll have to buy a real bathing suit for that.. since I don't think the other swimmers will enjoy my boobs busting out of the itsy bitsy teenie weenie red and green flowered bikini i will be sporting this summer.

Thanks team!

I am a happy duck.

For once in my lifetime, and when i say lifetime i mean the last 6 months, I am happy to look in the mirror. I looked in the mirror this evening after my shower. after the gym. and after tanning (which i know by the way will age me fast then time itself). and i was happy with what I say. I got into the bathing suit i baught last summer and I felt happy with what i saw. hurray!

but that does not mean Operation Get Fit Wasage was not started today. Thats right. I've made the commitment as of this moment. Today, I went the gym and ate chicken and potato salad for dinner. mind you.. not much else today. but still. On the right path. I will be thin (and when i say think i mean my stomach will no longer look like its may have a mind of its own and my thighs will no longer touching when i walk/stand still/move. Deal? Deal. I've had enough. Meghan does her bike riding. Lindsay does her running. I must find something to do on a regular basis that will keep me moving/entertained and losing weight. Im up for ideas. Feesable ones.

AND. I'm saving up for my new place again. No more frivaless spending. I will not say where the new place is. When I find it I will find it and I will move there. It may in fact be Ottawa. Toronto. Australia. Prague. Victoria. Vancouver. Ethiopia. You heard me. So. Just saving. Following the rules of that book march and farch gave me. Mind you, I haven't yet read it, but farch gave me the jist of it.

SO! china is funny. secretly i hate it. but only cause i work nights and don't have to actually talk to the craziest of the craziest chinese women that works there that only works during the day. sigh.

OK so my frozen fruit is no longer frozen and ready for yummy yummy eating. mmmmmm ..so if ya'll excuse me.

OH. so i started that womans blog. the memoirs of the fat lady... and so far.. im not exactly intrigued. I've seen vague quiz after vague quiz. apparently it will get better. im waaaaiting.

xxoo

A discussion vs. preaching.

The other day, a girl a used to work with added me to facebook. I worked with her at shoppers and have had a few drunken occassions with her. I also know that her dad is a full blown minister.

If there is one thing in life that I support it is the choice to make decisions about your body. Ashley, the girl from above, had joined an anti-abortion group. Now hear me out here. Without saying what I believe in or what I don't believe in, I absolutely 100% think its rude and not showing much empathy to human beings when you create or join on Facebook about Abortions.

I told her so. I said "I can understand and empathize with your right to not ever choose to get an abortion, but it saddens me that someone with your compassion and faith would join a "witch hunt" to change the minds of people who believe differently".

I don't care you if you would or wouldn't get an abortion. The decision should be a personal one, not one you should have to defend to a crowd, a person or a nation. No one in the world is every proud to say they've had an abortion, but if you've never been in the situation that one person was in.. how can you judge?

Just sayin is all.

So.. work in china? thats fun. at the moment I'm a little worked up so i'll comment later on working for Fu Man Choo.

xxoo

oh this is gonne be special...

Team. Its been a funkin long weekend.. and by shit.. its not even over yet.

1. So i went to Vancouver Friday night to see Lindsay with promises of boys.. booze and good times. We'll there was booze and lots of boys.. but were lacking the party mode I was definately in. There musta been 20 guys there.. and then me and lindsay and kylie as the girls. it was a little strange. THere were some hot ones.. but everyone was gone by 12:00. So we got stoned. I haven't been stoned since being here.. but shit.. I had one toke and I was out. So I was passed out by 12:30. Tried to set my alarm on my phone.. that didn't work. Woke up at 6:30 to catch the 7am ferry. Fucking missed it. Was late to the new job by and hour! Needless to say they weren't impressed.

So the new job... I work at Fairways Market. Apparently, it used to be owned by a Chinese couple.. and they only hired Chinese staff. not a word of a lie. Me, Melissa and Elysa are the only "canadian" girls in that store. Its kinda strange. In fact its thoroughly annoying. Its bad enough being trained at a job you can do in your sleep.. but having a chinese woman who speaks enlish a little.... and feels the need to repeat everything she says 12 times. dear god.

Well team. Today I am going back. And then possibly to a bbq tonight. until later.

xxoo

a jobwhore for life.

Oh hello! I'm sorry, I've been busy the last few weeks. But thats good news right? No mopping around feeling sorry for myself. I've been working hard, by not over doing it.
It came to me in a minute. The company's problems are not my problems. So now I dont worry about it too much. However, I do have a new job. Just a part time one, at the locol market. 9 buck an hour as a cashier? how could i not. anyways.. i will always have at least one day off for adventures.

Last weekend we went to Port Renfrew, beach combing. It was amazing. Oh. When i say we, i mean my a jenn. and when i say jenn, i mean my eyebrowist. lol. No, we're friends now.. and shes amazing. Cept she's moving back to Calgary cause she, like me, is finding victorians a little snobby. lol. a story from last weekend? well.. after we hit the beaches we went to this roadside cafe/restuarant to get some food. well.. the guys next to us were eating their freshly caught crab and boy were we eyeing it. it looked so good. so they gave us some! GAVE us two crabs! friggin crazy right? what next? well.. we were just chatting with them and they gave us some halibut. fresh-to-the-point-of-swimming-in-the-damn-ocean that morning. So we drove back to Sidney with a damn 70lb fish in a damn bucket in my damn trunk. so hilarious.

THis weekend.. I'm heading to Vancouver too see my friend Lindsay. I worked with her at shoppers in belleville during... second year? I was going to drive out here with her then.. but then i had to move home. needless to say she was pissed and hasn't talked to me til... well..when i moved out here. lol. so.. she's over it.. and now i'm going over friday afterwork.. partying our brains out.. apparently she nows a LOAD of single boys with careers... and then taking the 7am ferry back home saturday morning so i can go to the new job saturday at 9:30. dear god i know. the good news is the ferry ride is almost two hours.. so i can nap. lol. Sunday, jenn and i are going adventuring in gold stream park then to a bbq of one of the girls she works with. busy weekend i suspect.

so as you can tell.. im no longer moppy.. and considering moving out again. maybe i won't come home just yet? I am coming home in july for sure.. cause i need some friend and family time.. but not to stay for now i suppose.

ps. thanks laurel for you support.. its nice to hear from you!

miss ya heaps and heaps.. and still can't wait for july to come around!

xxoo